I am always preaching about going out and living your life! I went out today with my family and we celebrated my sisters birthday with some bowling! We ended up getting five games in and it was a blast! There is no better time on the planet to take more time with your loved ones. It ’s so important to s pend all the time you can with the people that you love! The world is unpredictable and you are never promised a tomorrow!         I hope you all enjoy your Sunday and that you ’re all ready to welcome in March (my birthday month!) refreshed and focused!         I am ready to hit some goals! And keep pushing myself out of my comfort zone!    XOXO       P.S. Glasses glare is real, real annoying! If you're a fellow four eyes like me (proud to be!) Then you know my struggle! 

     As February is ending (one more day, I know!) I am reflecting on everything that the month has brought me. What have I learned about myself that has brought me closer to my center?         I feel like,  “ Finding  your center” might be a little too simplistic. Because how do we know when we’ve found it? How to find it? Or if we’ve been there the whole time? What the fuck does it actually even mean?        If we’re talking about yoga, it generally means connecting with your spirit; but maybe that’s what I mean too! I am not entirely sure! Or maybe I am and I’m simply just making it more complicated than it needs to be?        Month by month I learn just how strong I am and what I’m capable of. A year ago, I was still a broken shell of a woman. I didn’t want to live let alone put myself out there the way I have in this blog or even on my social media. I have broadcast my weight loss journey and ...

     It ’s finally Friday! YASSSS!        I am going to try and incorporate more of my, “diet” with you guys! Cooking healthy foods while keeping your sanity! It’s not all about salads (even though salads are my absolute favorite!)        We’re going to do, “ Cooking  with Shelby segments!” I will nail down a day of the week where I post new recipes and go completely foodie on all of you! But for today, I think I am going to share my dinner tonight!    Grilled Chicken + Broccoli Alfredo with shirtaki, “pasta” 5 oz of cooked chicken breast: Cooked however you most enjoy it! 1/2 cup of fresh or frozen broccoli  1 cup boiled shirtaki pasta 1 laughing cow wedge 1oz of low fat or low moisture mozzarella cheese 1/4 cup of low carb, low sugar Alfredo sauce 1-3 tablespoons of unsweetened almond milk 1/4 tsp mrs dash garlic and herb seasoning 1/4 tsp pepper     * Next time I make this I’ll do 1/2 cup of shi...

     I have been bullied my entire life. From every angle and aspect.    - Too fat - Four eyes - Small boobs - Huge boobs - Big feet - Ugly - Stupid - Too smart - Showoff - Overachiever - Underachiever - Weird - Weak - Untalented        You fucking name it! If it exists, I’ve been bullied for it! It tore me apart as a child/young adult. It played over and over in my head, if anyone gave me an actual compliment, I didn’t believe a word they said. From years of being ridiculed for who I was.         There’s an important lesson in all of this, what you say to people has a lasting and damaging effect on people. Being kind is literally free, it’s one of the only things on this planet that doesn’t cost a dime and makes people feel wealthier than they’ve ever been.         A lot of what I went through beat me down, stripped my confidence layer by layer and turned me into a person I didn’t like or rec...

                                                     It ’s hump day again! The middle of the week, the light at the end of the tunnel! I wish I could bottle up weekends and make them last longer!         Weekends have always been my favorite, since I was a kid! I knew they meant no school for two whole days and freedom to do what I wanted. Now as an adult they generally mean I get the freedom to relax and unwind from the stressful week I just had. HA! Just kidding, as an adult they mean I gave to try and catch up all the shit I have been neglecting the entire week! Dishes, groceries, laundry, cleaning, breathing, people, you know the basics!         I mean I still get to unwind, jam to tons of music and occasionally I’ll go out and explore; when I can! But It’s that feeling in your chest, you know the one...

       In case you were wondering if I wrote yesterday or if I went full derp and binged Harry Potter; Harry Potter won and I am not sorry about it.         Call me what you want, but Harry Potter has been my absolute favorite series for as long as I can remember. I ’m a hardcore Pott Head! Fight me, judge me, roll your eyes at me, frankly I don’t fucking care. But like, anyone want to have a HP marathon with me?!         Anyway, I am hellaciously tired today (everyday?!) I had to do some adulting today and go grocery shopping. It’s not the worst thing ever, I actually really enjoy going and picking ou t healthy options now! It’s all about that right mindset, I’m telling you!         I feel like I’m always telling you guys that I am tired. It’s that damn ‘VID, I’m telling you! I 10/10 don’t recommend! I had all the energy before it and now I feel like being awake for 2 hours calls for a nap! (...

          Today is one of my very off days! I am in my head about so many things that I can ’t seem to get something written. And when I do, my brain forces me to hit that dreaded delete button. I’ve tried so many times today to get something down on paper and even computer but so far I don’t have anything. I don’t know if I would call it writers block or if I would call it a glitch of the mind!    But either way, I am just doing the best that I can! Even though we all have our bad days when we aren’t as productive or creative as we want to be. I am always finding that I’m beating myself up for fear that I’m, “not measuring up” to my full potential! Or that I’ve simply been wasting my time with this dream of mine.    I have doubts like everyone else and what I try so hard not to do to myself is put negative thoughts into my head.    “I have been wasting my time and life all of these years trying to break into a world that isn’t...

            Today is going to be short sweet and to the point! Because I’m going out and living my life today, like I’ve been preaching about this whole time.     Life is a series full of ups and downs and I think that once we embrace who we are the road tends to make a little bit more sense. I recently had a friend say that she just wanted one person to not give up on her.  I felt compelled to tell her this, “I’ve learned along the way, through my struggles and my triumphs, that the ONE person that you need to never give up on you is YOU!     There are always going to be other people. But if you can’t love, motivate, trust and appreciate yourself, you lose faith in a lot of other things. So focus on never giving up on yourself first and I think you’ll love where it takes you!”       I whole heartedly believe that to be the truth. You have to accept where you are, who you are and where you’re heading in order to ...

     It ’s been a really relaxing day today! I can’t remember the last time I did absolutely nothing all day and didn’t feel extremely guilty about it.         I work from home so a lot of people (fam, friends, outsiders) are under the impression that I am relaxing all the time. When that couldn’t be the farthest thing from the truth. I work twice as hard to stay motivated, keep on top of tasks and making sure that I hit deadlines. Does anyone realize how EASY it is to get distracted at home with random side things. Music, T.V, art, instagram traps, random videos, my guilty pleasure (my 600LB life), art, dishes (ha!)  random scrolling, literally the possibilities of distractions are freakin’ ENDLESS!         So here’s a breakdown for anyone who thinks, “I dOn’T wOrK” because I work from home:   *  2-3 hours is spent going over submitted papers that I have to go over with a fine tooth comb to make sure I’m he...

     I am on struggle bus island today! I am still searching for energy since having the  ‘vid! It sounds crazy but I have not been myself since! I find myself being tired a lot even if I’ve gotten a full 8 hours of sleep, which is super rare for me anyway. 😬        In a short time span, I had emergency gallbladder surgery, two months later I got Covid and that literally took everything out of me and I just feel like I can’t catch up on rest, no matter how long I sleep. Which again, is never as long as I’d like! 💤        I have been trying so hard to get more sleep because I know it helps promote healthier living, healthier skin and a plethora of other things but Lord Jesus! It’s so hard! I already feel like there aren’t enough hours in the day to get everything done that I want; and it makes it extra hard when I am always exhausted! 😴        So that is my weekly struggle! Trying to survive this crazy lif...

         All right! If you seen my post from yesterday you know that I was being 10 kinds of dramatic. As you can see, I am here posting again, so I SURVIVED! As expected today I am in some pain and there is a lot of discomfort but I am still alive and kicking!         I still stand behind my statement that  I hate the dentist. If that’s your profession and you stumble upon my blog, I’m sorry but your kind is evil. 😡       So , happy February 18th! I feel like we’re flying through this month! As much as I want time to slow down, I don’t think I’m going to say it out loud for fear that we’ll stop like we did last year! So I can feel it just not say it! “It’s going to be a better year, it’s going to be a better year..”       Is anyone as sick of saying that as I am? Sometimes I feel like we’re all just walking on eggshells trying not to shatter the delicate exterior... but I can’t just worry about w...

     Today is a glum day in the neighborhood! I am getting some dental work done and I absolutely HATE the dentist. I have some serious teeth anxiety and because I had to make the appointment and wait for the day to get here (and then they called me and bumped me up a week earlier because of cancellations) I am a hot mess! Random patron who canceled, I feel you and I envy you!         I keep telling myself I ’ve done much harder things and this is going to be a walk in the park, but the anxiety is real and I am feeling way out of sorts today!         Thankfully, my sister is going to be with me so I don’t have to do it alone and I’ll have plenty of time to heal up before the annual family trip to The Great Wolf Lodge!         Anyone else hate the dentist as much as I do? After they’re done ramming sharp metal objects into my gums and slicing my gums in two while they’re thunder punching the floss i...