Take me to Hogwarts!

 

    In case you were wondering if I wrote yesterday or if I went full derp and binged Harry Potter; Harry Potter won and I am not sorry about it. 

 

    Call me what you want, but Harry Potter has been my absolute favorite series for as long as I can remember. I’m a hardcore Pott Head! Fight me, judge me, roll your eyes at me, frankly I don’t fucking care. But like, anyone want to have a HP marathon with me?! 

 

    Anyway, I am hellaciously tired today (everyday?!) I had to do some adulting today and go grocery shopping. It’s not the worst thing ever, I actually really enjoy going and picking ou
t healthy options now! It’s all about that right mindset, I’m telling you! 

 

    I feel like I’m always telling you guys that I am tired. It’s that damn ‘VID, I’m telling you! I 10/10 don’t recommend! I had all the energy before it and now I feel like being awake for 2 hours calls for a nap! (I don’t nap, I just really want too!) (....OKAY, fine! I nap sometimes!) 

 

    THIS IS ME CALLING TO THE GODS, PRAYING THAT THEY GRANT ME MY FUCKING ENERGY BACK! 

(MOMENT OF SILENCE!)

 

    Okay, moments over! I am determined to get some actual writing done today! Even if it’s only 200 words, it’s more than I had before! That’s what I keep telling myself anyway! Slow and steady, I’ll still win the race; just at my own pace! 

 

    I haven’t talked about therapy in awhile! So I am going to end today with this:

 

    I have known my therapist for the last 2.5 years. I’ve been working through so much with her and during my last session Deb is the one who wanted to talk, which is of course odd, since shes the therapist and I am the thera-needed! She said to me:

 

    “Shelby, I just wanted to take a few moments and tell you how proud I am of your progress. I have watched you for the last 2.5 years, when you first came to see me, you were in such a broken and fractured state. Today you are a proud, confident, knows how she feels and how to express it, woman! You are still working through some stuff but you are a completely different person today and I couldn’t be more proud.”

 

    I feel so blessed! Her words were kind and I really felt like she meant every word. I owe a lot of my progress to her, she has taught me so much about myself and ways to cope with hard things. The biggest thing she taught me was how to get through my worst anxiety days! 

 

    I have grown leaps and bounds from who I was even just a year ago! I to say I am thankful is an understatement! 

 

    Okay, I am off to write.... or finish the rest of my Harry Potter movies!

 XOXO