I survived!

  

    All right! If you seen my post from yesterday you know that I was being 10 kinds of dramatic. As you can see, I am here posting again, so I SURVIVED! As expected today I am in some pain and there is a lot of discomfort but I am still alive and kicking! 

 

    I still stand behind my statement that I hate the dentist. If that’s your profession and you stumble upon my blog, I’m sorry but your kind is evil. 😡

 

    So, happy February 18th! I feel like we’re flying through this month! As much as I want time to slow down, I don’t think I’m going to say it out loud for fear that we’ll stop like we did last year! So I can feel it just not say it! “It’s going to be a better year, it’s going to be a better year..”

 

    Is anyone as sick of saying that as I am? Sometimes I feel like we’re all just walking on eggshells trying not to shatter the delicate exterior... but I can’t just worry about what I’m doing, I stress about the rest of the worlds big clunky feet breaking things too! I am a self proclaimed, “fixer” I feel the need to fix situations, people.. usually anything to avoid fixing myself. It’s a great distraction! Until it’s not a distraction anymore! You can't change until you confront what's really going on inside, you never truly know what you're capable of surviving unless you do!

 

    You guys are going to hear me say, “2021 is the year I take back my life!” A LOT. So only stay if you’re good with someone who is going through some MAJOR life changes! The only person I’m fixing this year is myself! I was so tired of always feeling like, “I’m too different” to fit into the “norm” or what’s perceived as normal. 

 

Being different is such a fucking BLESSING!

 

    I am not a carbon copy of anyone! I am made up of my personal experiences, my successes, my failures, my happy times, my sad times, I am made up everything I’ve ever been through and I know that’s why I am the delightful person writing this! I mean, biased opinion or not! (HAHA!) 😹

 

    Be you, every single day! Don’t attempt to be someone else, no matter what traits you try and weld and glue onto yourself, you’ll never fully be able to adopt them because they aren’t yours in the first place! Embrace who you are, allow for change and give yourself grace! You’ll find who you’re supposed to be when you least expect it! Another thing you’re always going to hear me say is if you aren't changing, you aren’t growing! And to me, that’s the worst thing you can do to yourself! You can’t block your path to change! Keep the channels open! 

 

    Signing off, a sleepy scatterbrained savage! 

    AKA: A girl who chose herself over others for the first time in forever! 

 

XOXO