Don't let the doubt creep in!

    

    Today is one of my very off days! I am in my head about so many things that I can’t seem to get something written. And when I do, my brain forces me to hit that dreaded delete button. I’ve tried so many times today to get something down on paper and even computer but so far I don’t have anything. I don’t know if I would call it writers block or if I would call it a glitch of the mind! 

 

But either way, I am just doing the best that I can! Even though we all have our bad days when we aren’t as productive or creative as we want to be. I am always finding that I’m beating myself up for fear that I’m, “not measuring up” to my full potential! Or that I’ve simply been wasting my time with this dream of mine. 

 

I have doubts like everyone else and what I try so hard not to do to myself is put negative thoughts into my head. 

 

“I have been wasting my time and life all of these years trying to break into a world that isn’t right for me!”

 

That negativity will fucking kill you! This journey I have been on with having a writing career has been a huge sacrifice. I haven’t had long standing or consistent paying jobs, which means that financially I could be doing better! If I had a, “real” job like everyone so prominently tells me, ALL. THE. TIME I could be doing, “so much more.” 

 

I am working harder than they can even fathom at getting my work out there and trying new things to give myself an extra edge. But they don’t see the work that I am putting in behind the scenes or how hard I push myself to take myself out of my own comfort zone.

 

It’s all a mindset. I have to basically just say, “fuck what others think and say about me.” Because I know that I’m doing what I love and know that while money would solve just about 97% of my problems, but it isn’t everything. I deserve a career that I love, just like anyone else. 

 

With that being said, I’m off to try and get something written! Or binge watch Harry Potter, either one sounds pretty fantastic! 

 

XOXO