Everyone always says that they have defining moments when they know exactly who they ’re going to be and what path they want to go down. Some magical moment of pure mental clarity and they just, “know.”        I’m calling bullshit; complete and utter bullshit.         Nobody, I am repeating NOBODY is ever THAT clear about who they want to be and if they tell you that they are...they’re lying to you, sis!         I myself have been 100% sure of who I was going to be about a dozen times and here I am still fumbling around like a hot mess express trying to figure out who the fuck I am.         I mean, I don’t have amnesia, I know who am, I just don’t know WHO I am.         For now I can tell you these facts:   I am loyal, sometimes to a fault.   I am learning to love myself again.   I am smart, I know things I didn’t even r...

         Do you ever have days when you ’re just feeling so uninspired that you just sit and do absolutely nothing? And at the end of it, you’re still sitting there in the mess of it all thinking, “what in the absolute fuck am I doing with my life?!”         Today is that day for me! I am searching for inspiration in everything. The leaves, the trees, the air shift, the weather, the birds, the bees and butterflies..... everything. I no doubt see the beauty in everything, I’m just looking for the inspiration in it all.         Being a creative person is hard at times, things don’t just flow out of me at all hours of the day and night. It takes careful planning, a lot of, “first pancakes” and daydreaming in order to make things happen. It sounds strange because everyone is always like, “being creative comes so natural to you!” and, “you’re literally a jack of all trades, you can do anything!” Trust me, I love the c...

Artwork on tee: MINE!            Okay y'all! The goods finally came and I am so excited to share!           I have been working on this for weeks getting it just right! Putting my artwork on, well everything! I have been so nervous about it, I always,  “worry” if someone is going to like my work or not... I guess I don’t care anymore! Because here I am!         Savage is in reference to this blog AND the fact that I am a proud woman who is just going to start taking what she wants, sorry not sorry!        Here’s the link if you want to check it out:  https://shelbylin11.threadless.com          On another note today, I got the second dose of my Covid vaccine today! Glad to be doing my part!      XOXO   

    Here we are again, SUNDAY! A dreaded day in my household. Ever since I was a kid, Sunday meant the end of my freedom and the night before I had to go back to school for the week. Now it means that I have to go and be an adult and do worky stuff so I make money and can you know, pay bills and put food in the fridge and stuff. I have to do the stuff to buy the stuff.          Today I am taking it easy and feeling grateful for everything I have in my life. Not just physical things but mentally. I have my mental health and clarity back which is the greatest gift I could have given myself! And I have gained my physical health back as well and for that I am eternally grateful!         Healing from the inside out is really the greatest thing I’ve done for myself. I have a long way to go but I am more for the journey than I have ever been about the destination! I don’t know where I’ll end up but I can guarantee you that I’ll b...

     Because the world is crazy, still.... I am beyond sick of saying that, but it ’s reality! We had a family trip to The Great Wolf Lodge... it was canceled 5 times and each time we rescheduled, disappointment still made its way in because after the 5th  time, the 17 of us decided to just cancel and try for when shits better. (whenever the hell that’s going to be....*heavy eye roll*) 😤        SO, in place of that, we decided to do movie night in my parents basement. Which basically a fully loaded theatre anyways. Giant popcorn machine, a literal snack bar with fridge, drinks, candies and anything that you could ever want! And as a bonus, NO MASKS for a 2 hour movie! 😷      What movie you ask? We’re going to be streaming Godzilla VS. Kong. Everyone is pretty excited to see it... except me of course.          I have an irrational fear of Godzilla. You see, I am part Thai. Which is classified as,“Asian” As ...

    It just so happens to be Face to face FriYAY today! So peep this transformation:      Crazy, right?! I am still floored sometimes when I look at myself. Sometimes I don ’t even believe that I am the same person. Which in many ways I am not. But underneath the new bod is the same flesh and bone and blood that I was constructed of before. It’s just that now, my insides are different. Molded into something new and hungry for the healthy lifestyle I’ve always wanted but was too weak to chase after.         Now I’m running and refuse to stop! You can’t replace the way I feel now for the way I WAS then. Filling my body with junk to try and fill the void of everything I was sad, mad, angry, pissed off and frustrated about. I thought that the momentary bout of happiness I got from food was going to heal me...I’ve literally never felt more naive, stupid and careless in my entire life. I was the destruction in my own life for years and as...

       It’s been weighing heavy on my heart lately so I feel like I need to say something about confidence.         It has taken me such a long time to find mine. To be okay with the person that I am. Be comfortable in my own skin and know that the only person who can honestly judge me is God and myself.         I still sometimes take it to heart when someone doesn’t like me and I always immediately think, “what could I have done or said for them to not like me?”        I think it’s human nature to think that at times and being an INFJ and 4 on the Enneagram scale, I think it runs through me like the blood in my veins.         It has taken me years, literal years for me to get to this place where I’ve accepted that some people just don’t like me and it’s perfectly OK! I won’t change who I am for anyone, unless I am madly in love with you.. I’d change for you (whoever he’s g...

     I am an absolute SUCKER for some good food! I ’ve talked about it here before! My deep appreciation for the process! Where it comes from and how it’s grown! I made some of the most delicious food today and I feel it’s completely necessary to share!         We’re gonna be Cooking with Shelby today! Sort of, I was really excited to chow down and get the food done that I forgot to take a ton of pictures! 🙈        What are we working with today? Jicama!       What is Jicama you ask?! According to Google:      “ It ’ s flesh is juicy and crunchy, with a slightly sweet and nutty  flavor. Some think it tastes like a cross between a potato and a pear. Others compare it to a water chestnut. Other names for  Jicama  include yam bean, Mexican potato, Mexican water chestnut and Chinese turnip. ”        I can agree with a potato flavor and s...

     I am doing the best that I can today! I have been sick for the last 5 days.   Ear ache Headache Fever Sore throat Stuffy nose Runny nose Dry cough        Miserable.         So today I am going to be resting and trying to get better! I have A LOT coming down the pipe! I finally got the majority of my super secret launch stuff in the mail and am just waiting on ONE more package! I get my second Covid shot on Tuesday and then I have vacation at the end of this month! I have a lot to be healthy for! So I am going to be doing my absolute best!         I. Can ’t. Wait. For. The. Launch!       I also can’t wait for vacation! I can’t wait to turn my brain off and just relax for awhile! It’s been way too long!         I’ll inform you all within the next few days of what my big launch is! Stay posted!          In the meantime, here ar...

    We left off with me saying that,  “ Having a thirst for knowledge is a real superpower . ”        I still feel that way in its entirety. Let me explain to you why I feel that way.        A lot of people think that once they have an education, high school or college that they’ve learned all they can learn; or they don’t desire to learn anymore. Which don’t get me wrong, I don’t think there is anything wrong with that, I don’t look down on people who don’t desire the learn anything more. Trust me, it took me a very LONG time to get to this point.        I never even thought I was worthy of learning anymore than I already knew. I wasn’t a great student in grade school and the thought of schooling in general disgusted me.          It wasn’t until I was in my senior year of high school that I started to care about what I was learning. Or rather I started believing that I was 1000...