They never promised it would be easy....

  



    Everyone always says that they have defining moments when they know exactly who they’re going to be and what path they want to go down. Some magical moment of pure mental clarity and they just, “know.”

 

    I’m calling bullshit; complete and utter bullshit. 

 

    Nobody, I am repeating NOBODY is ever THAT clear about who they want to be and if they tell you that they are...they’re lying to you, sis! 

 

    I myself have been 100% sure of who I was going to be about a dozen times and here I am still fumbling around like a hot mess express trying to figure out who the fuck I am. 

 

    I mean, I don’t have amnesia, I know who am, I just don’t know WHO I am. 

 

    For now I can tell you these facts:

 

  • I am loyal, sometimes to a fault. 
  • I am learning to love myself again. 
  • I am smart, I know things I didn’t even realize I knew.  
  • I love reading.
  • I am an INFJ.
  • I am a 4 on the Enneagram scale.  
  • I love my parents. 
  • My voice gets extremely quiet and raspy when I am tired. 
  • I HATE sleeping in pants, it’s gross. Bottoms in general.
  • I HAVE to sleep with the fan on. 
  • Harry Potter is STILL magical to me.
  • Sometimes smiling is too much for me. 
  • Being in large groups of people, overwhelms and exhausts me. 
  • I have 7 of the greatest little blessings in the world and they call me Aunt.
  • I was told at a very young age that I couldn’t have children of my own, but I remain optimistic. 
  • I am the worlds slowest eater, no seriously put me in a contest with a busy 1 year old and I’d still lose.
  • I have a DEEP spiritual connection to the things and places that mean the most to me. 
  • Music is my love language.  
  • I am attracted to intellect, humor and kindness. It’s goes way beyond someones exterior.
  • I have an anxiety disorder. 

 

    These are all facts. And I am sure if asked, you could make a laundry list of facts about yourself. The difference is, these facts don’t make you who you are. They’re more like quirks, we all have them, they flow through us as sure as blood flows though our veins. 

 

    Life is hard and I think figuring out exactly who we are or aren’t is a journey that never ends. I have been on a journey mindset lately and if you’ve been following along you know what I mean by that! 

 

 

    Life is about the journey and there are always going to be new destinations. Don’t find your first one, park it there and set up shop for forever. Destinations were meant to change and so ARE we! 

 

    Which is what I meant up at the top when I said that if anyone tells you they know for certain, 100% that they know where they’re going... don’t believe them! Detours are what keeps us on our toes and they’re completely out of our control. We have to let go and let God sometimes.  

 

    What IS in our control is how we handle the new routes after! How are we going to turn the unknown into an adventure? We can sulk about it or just enjoy the journey. 

 

 

    Happy hump day friends! Here’s to finding ourselves one day at a time! Enjoy the fucking journey! 



XOXO

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