Hello and welcome to FRIYAY!

    It just so happens to be Face to face FriYAY today! So peep this transformation:

    Crazy, right?! I am still floored sometimes when I look at myself. Sometimes I don’t even believe that I am the same person. Which in many ways I am not. But underneath the new bod is the same flesh and bone and blood that I was constructed of before. It’s just that now, my insides are different. Molded into something new and hungry for the healthy lifestyle I’ve always wanted but was too weak to chase after. 

 

    Now I’m running and refuse to stop! You can’t replace the way I feel now for the way I WAS then. Filling my body with junk to try and fill the void of everything I was sad, mad, angry, pissed off and frustrated about. I thought that the momentary bout of happiness I got from food was going to heal me...I’ve literally never felt more naive, stupid and careless in my entire life. I was the destruction in my own life for years and as a result of that, I let myself go, in BIG, BIG ways.

 

    Unresolved trauma, untold feelings, anxiety, depression, INFJ, fourness. It was all there, undiagnosed, undiscovered and misunderstood. Reaching out for help was by far and away the best thing I’ve ever done for MYSELF! 

 

    I healed my mind and then I began healing my body! 

 

    Let me say that again, but this time, say it slower. 

 

    I healed my mind and then began healing my body! 

 

My mind was sick, damaged, sad and my anxiety wasn’t going to let me forget it. When you feel so trapped inside your own body, mind and soul, it’s time for professional help. For me anyway, it was the absolute right step. 

 

 

    Remember that nobody can make you do anything that you don’t want to do! YOU have to make up your mind first, commit to that decision and then feel free to change your fucking mind and do what’s best for YOU at any point in the game. 

 

    There is this strange notion in A LOT of people that you aren’t allowed to change your mind and change courses. Remember yesterday when I said that you need to look at things as a journey and not a destination? It’s the same thing with pretty much anything. (there are exceptions, but not many!)

 

 

    Lesson of the day: Allow yourself to HEAL. Don’t let anyone tell you that your trauma, anger, anxiety, depression and pain isn’t valid. If it’s valid to YOU, that’s the only thing that matters. 

 

 

XOXO