Uninspired Pressure!

 

 

    Do you ever have days when you’re just feeling so uninspired that you just sit and do absolutely nothing? And at the end of it, you’re still sitting there in the mess of it all thinking, “what in the absolute fuck am I doing with my life?!” 

 

    Today is that day for me! I am searching for inspiration in everything. The leaves, the trees, the air shift, the weather, the birds, the bees and butterflies..... everything. I no doubt see the beauty in everything, I’m just looking for the inspiration in it all. 

 

    Being a creative person is hard at times, things don’t just flow out of me at all hours of the day and night. It takes careful planning, a lot of, “first pancakes” and daydreaming in order to make things happen. It sounds strange because everyone is always like, “being creative comes so natural to you!” and, “you’re literally a jack of all trades, you can do anything!” Trust me, I love the compliment but it puts a lot of pressure on me to continually be honing my skills and stepping outside of my comfort zones in order to live up to the expectations of others.

 

    What a stupid notion!! Especially because I started creating just for MYSELF; Nobody else. So why do I feel so much pressure?! Ironically enough, I put the pressure on myself. Which is equally as stupid, but what do you do when you feel like you aren’t creating enough!? You push yourself to do it as often as you can; and a lot of times it forces you to push yourself to places you either don’t want to be or where you didn’t know you needed to be. 

 

    I’ve found that some of my best creativity (writing, painting, sewing, vinyling etc..) comes from my darkest and most creatively frustrated places! 

 

    So today, I am going to allow myself to be creatively frustrated and boring until something amazing begins to flow out of me. Something amazing or first pancake like, I guess we won’t know until I’ve created it. 

 

    I am going to do my best to keep the pressure off myself, because I deserve room to breathe and be as creatively free as I want to be! I can’t expect everything to come out perfect and I don’t want it too, it’s how I learn! 

 

 

    May your week be overflowing with creativity and positive vibes! 

 

XOXO