Island of Adventure and Universal Studios:  Excitement level: 10,000. No shame!         Be still my super nerdy heart! If you don’t know this by now, you aren’t paying attention! I am a HUGE Harry Potter fan! Like, I am a lifer! It’s who I am, it’s what I know! So today is going to be such a fun day!         Butter Beer: At least 2 before I leave. Probably more like 3 or 4 but whose counting?! Not me! I am THAT nerd who collects the collector wands from the park.....judge me, fight me, you’ll lose!         I don’t have a favorite thing, it’s literally all my favorite! The whole aesthetic of it is my favorite. BUT if I had to choose something to be my favorite thing, it would 10/10 be the train! If you have the opportunity, DO IT! You will not regret it!           Alright! I am off for the day! I will probably be adding more to this later as the day progresses! Don’t forge...

Vacation Day 1!   Wake up: 3:40AM. Drive time to airport: 1 hour and 51 minutes. Flight: 8:30AM. Arrive time: 11:15AM.   Exhaustion level: 75% Stoked level: 100%        This has been a long time coming and I am absolutely ecstatic to be getting a break from reality!         We have a packed schedule, but I am so freaking excited!    Day 1: Arrival and Disney Springs!  Day 2: Universal Studios and Island of Adventure all day! Day  3 :  Daytona Beach all day! Day  4 :  Busch Gardens all day! Day  5 :  Home, but we have super late flights and we have the entire day so we ’ll find something amazing to do!         I am not going to spend copious amounts of time blogging for obvious reasons but I committed to writing every single day so that’s what I’m going to do!         Anyway, I am off to go shopping! Dinner and whatever other shenanigans we...

         It’s the day before I go off on a much needed adventure and what am I doing? Having a full on panic mode moment! That’s okay! I fully expected this and prepared for it!         Hey! When you know yourself, you know yourself!         It’s something I’m working on and I’ve grown leaps and bounds from who I used to be! But the panic modes still sneak in sometimes when I am stressed or anxious and girl, anxious might as well be my middle name!         My closest friends and fam tell me they can tell when I am anxious in public based on my body language... they’re things I don’t even know I’m doing and or ever did to begin with! I try so hard to pay attention to myself when I am super anxious and I still don’t notice.         That just goes to show how much I am up in my own head if I’m not noticing that I am full on bouncing my leg up and down like I’m traini...

Happy Tuesday!          It’s last minute do everything you’ve been neglecting for your entire life day! Yesterday was just the practice run and today is the full on audition!         Do you think I’ll make it?! I HAVE to so, you know there’s that!         I am doing so much better with my time management than I was a year ago! I’m still not perfect but you know, who is!? With the exception of Betty White; she can keep shining that light down on us all and giving me the strength to keep moving forward! Keep shining, girl!         Today I’ve been jamming out to music and getting all the little things done! All of my responsibilities for my work and my creative life! Which I feel like taking a break from won’t be the end all be all but I made commitments to myself that I would be as productive as I could be this year; physically and creatively!         So I've gotten...

          Happy Monday, y'all! I ’m already in full vacation mode! I have SO much to do before I go and I am lacking the motivation! But I know, some way, some how, it’ll get done! Because you know, it has to!         So, I finally made a graphic for you guys to see how crazy I am. But literally it’s my thought process and I feel the need to share it! Because my brain is a hot mess express half the time!                   If you read through those and can relate! You’re my kind of human! If you read through that and can’t relate....congra.... just kidding fuck you! I wish my brain was tidy sometimes but it’s not and I just have to roll with it!         So if you’ve ever wondered what my thought process is.... there you go! It’s insanity!         Alright, I just wanted to get something down for the day before I forget! I have to go do ...

           OK, so I lied when I said last game night because I am headed back over that direction for game night number two! I love that I have a close relationship with my sister and brother in law! It just makes life better!         I am also going to be planting some,  “colder weather”  veggies before I go too! It ’s been something I’ve been putting off because they keep calling for freakin’ snow flurries! It’s April.... I feel like we could full send the warmer weather at any point in time and that would be fantastic! I mean I can’t really complain, I choose to live here!         I feel like I have a million things to do and only three days to do it! It’s starting to stress me out! I am very much a list person and I haven’t began to write my lists of lists. I am trying so freakin' hard to be an in the moment person but this is too much for me. So tonight, I begin the lists. It’s a must, if you ...

           Last game night before vacation is tonight! I talk about it like it ’s the last time anyone will ever see me and lately, I am feeling that deeply because I keep threatening not to come home! My heart is so ready for adventure!         I am craving something new and I don’t know exactly what it is yet, but it’s out there and I am going to find it! I wont rest until my heart is completely content. Which I know is going to be a very long journey! That’s what I want! A journey of experiences, lessons and adventures! I feel like that’s what everyone should want out of life, but nobody is the same and that is perfectly okay! I prefer it that way!        A hard right turn into individualism! I am so sick of monkey see monkey do! We’re all different and it’s time people start recognizing the beauty in all of that!   I am an individual who wants children but was told I couldn’t have my own. Will that stop ...

     AHHHHHH! Be still my nerdy heart! Harry Potter in 7 DAYS! I am such a nerd and I am not ashamed whatsoever!          I have been waiting for this for a whole month! Haha, I literally booked the vacation a month in advance and I feel like it ’s been 10 years!         I just feel like I need a serious break from reality! It’s been a year from hell! For everyone! But I just feel like my last year has been extra. Which I’m 1000% sure others had it worse, but I am allowed to feel sorry for myself sometimes.    Covid hit Emergency gallbladder surgery Actually getting Covid Dentist shit        There’s more but my stupid sister JUST said and I quote, “Hopefully all the bad stuff is done now!” with enthusiasm like she didn’t just jinx my ass.         I’m gonna kick her right in the shin! Lord, send help!         Anyway, I am off for the night again...

    Ayyy, it’s Earth Day! Everyday should be Earth Day! But because there’s a special day for it, so naturally I had to illustrate something! So here she is!      On a very randoms side note, a friend of mine asked a question that got me thinking! She said, “what is happiness to YOU?”  I had the hardest time answering that at first! Happiness is such a hard thing to vocalize. Some people find it in other people, husbands, wives, children, friends. Others find it in a burrito (Full disclosure: you’re my type of person if you do!)         This is eventually what I came up with saying, because It’s the truth!         Happiness isn’t a destination for me. It’s a journey. I spent such a long time sad and unable to articulate the reasons that now that I’ve pulled myself out of it, happiness is all the little things that I never could do for myself before. Like dressing in a cute top because I’m confident enou...

         I will not apologize for my love of emojis and little illustrated versions of myself. I am obsessed! But every time I look at them I think to myself, there are NO versions of this that have tattoos and I ’m covered in them. (okay, not covered yet! But 14 with plans for more!)        So I illustrated my own with my very own tattoos (the ones you can visually see!) It took a lot of patience getting them just right but I am obsessed with how she came out! I finally am comfortable enough with my art to say that I am obsessed with some of the things I’m creating!        It feels so damn good to day that! I can feel my confidence growing each day! I am teaching myself pretty much everything. Every technique, every brush stroke, it’s a learning curve and I am loving the journey!         I have always been into art but I was never confident enough to share my stuff or try new things. I stuck with ...

         Life is hard and you don’t need to complicate it further by carrying around unnecessary heavy things. Let it go!   I am big on repeating myself, so let’s say that again.         Life is hard and you don’t need to complicate it further by carrying around unnecessary heavy things. Let it go!   -Shelby        I also like to give myself credit for things because I spent a large portion of my life giving away my credit and power. Giving others credit where credit wasn’t due.         Speaking of giving away my power, I think it’s so important to talk about what exactly that means. You can give away your power with virtually anything and I’ve noticed that I do it a lot when I am anxious about how people will view me or what they’ll think of me if they don’t like what I’m offering.         I give away my power to freedom of expression when I worry about what...

       AHHHHH! It ’s new art Monday! Which is like everyday as of late because I’ve been on a roll! I’m sure it’ll slow down because everything eventually does! BUT, this one has been something that I’ve been wanting to do for some time now! I am absolutely LIT about the warm weather coming our way and cannot wait to start hitting up the farmers markets! It is so important now more than ever to shop locally and eat locally! Supporting small business owners is literally everything!         I was always the girl that went to a grocery store over a veggie booth. Don’t ask me why when I am literally surrounded by farmland! I was a trash person and chose convenience over mindfulness.         What can I say? I am in a massive growth year and it’s something that I am continually working on!           Lesson of the day: Do the right thing and give your money to small business owners!   ...

    I went and did a little shopping today! Outlet mall to the rescue! The rescue of what?! Boredom? The need to spend unnecessary money? Both? Not sure! I didn ’t do too much damage because I leave for vacation in like ten days! All I can say is GOD BLESS! I am so ready to be done with reality for a little while! Life has been unbearably blah as of late and I cannot wait to turn my brain off and derp it out a little bit! Does anyone else feel the need to just be completely brainless for a little while?! No, just me wishing my brain away for 48 hours?! OK! Cool!         Anyway, I have been working hard on getting new art done, simply because I really enjoy doing it! In addition to that I LOVE getting new stuff uploaded to the art shop, It’s such a gratifying feeling seeing your work ON things!         I have been thinking that I really need to get some posts cranked out for when I’m in the sunshine state! Or I write them o...

 Here's my art for the day!       Today has been really low-key! I've spent time getting some art done and I've been jamming to tunes literally all day! Music is legit my love language!       I've dubbed it self care Saturday! I don't very often make entire days dedicated to, "Pampering" myself! But I made the acceptation today because I felt like I really needed it! By self care I mean I did nothing stress inducing, trimmed my hair and dyed it darker! There are literally 1000 things I should have probably done today, but I didn't because I knew I needed to breathe! We all need days to ourselves and today was mine! The shit will be there tomorrow, the to do list isn't going to grow legs and suddenly walk away.       I mean what I say when I tell you that there is absolutely no destination worth rushing the journey! Self care is apart of the journey!       Thought of the day: Have you ever thought that y...

         I am trying to do better about being kinder to myself.      Here's the truth: ·  I hate my butt. It's flat and shapeless! I am working on it okay? "I have a great butt...I have a GREAT BUTT!"  ·  I don't love my body... but I AM working on that as well, day by day!  ·  I don't always think things will get done, but if I tell myself enough that they will, miracles can happen! ·  I don't think I am hideous, but I don't necessarily think I'm beautiful. It's a process!  ·  I hate feeling like I'm taking up space!  ·  My thoughts are intrusive sometimes, but important nonetheless! ·  I am 10/10 the funniest person on the planet, fight me! ·  I put A LOT of pressure on myself all the time. ·  I DO think I am intelligent!  ·  I know I'm not perfect, I am PERFECTLY fine with that!         Life is complex and hard! And we all have feelings abou...

         SO, my Florida vacation is just a couple weeks away and I decided after I get home from said vacation (given that I am not burnt to a crisp; I have the delicate skin of a sparrow) that I am going to get the thigh tattoo that I ’ve been wanting for so long.         Here’s the fun part, I have wanted a thigh piece but don’t know WHAT I want. The struggle is real! I am stuck between a couple different designs (thank goodness I have some time to figure it out!)         I have several other tattoos, 13...14... 15... I don’t know I’ve lost track, but I’ve never jumped at getting one on my thigh before because of my size. I didn’t want to be judged, I didn’t want to be made fun of and I didn’t want to commit to sitting in that tiny chair for a few hours because let’s face it, when you’re a bigger person, sitting still in the same spot for hours isn’t feasible.        Now that I am more than ...