Inhale, Exhale, Repeat!

  

 

    OK, so I lied when I said last game night because I am headed back over that direction for game night number two! I love that I have a close relationship with my sister and brother in law! It just makes life better! 

 

    I am also going to be planting some, “colder weather” veggies before I go too! It’s been something I’ve been putting off because they keep calling for freakin’ snow flurries! It’s April.... I feel like we could full send the warmer weather at any point in time and that would be fantastic! I mean I can’t really complain, I choose to live here! 

 

    I feel like I have a million things to do and only three days to do it! It’s starting to stress me out! I am very much a list person and I haven’t began to write my lists of lists. I am trying so freakin' hard to be an in the moment person but this is too much for me. So tonight, I begin the lists. It’s a must, if you can go off the cuff and just do it last minute, I commend you and I envy you! Because this feeling is not a fun one or an easy thing to get passed! 

 

    Breathe, Shelby, Breathe! It’s all going to be alright, child! Inhale, exhale! 

 

    That didn’t make me feel much better, but I know that it will all work out in the end! It will be what it will be and there’s no shame in admitting that I am both so freakin’ excited and nervous! Traveling has always given me mad anxiety but especially now with the world in shambles, it’s extra nerve-wracking! It’s been four years since I’ve been on a plane... they wig me out! But I love it all in the same, I know I’m a real catch-22! 

 

    Anyway, I am off to make lists and check them a million times just to rewrite them and then recheck them... they cycle will continue! It’s a pain in the ass being me sometimes, but I guess that’s the beauty in individualism! 

 

 

XOXO