It's all about balance!

  

    SO, my Florida vacation is just a couple weeks away and I decided after I get home from said vacation (given that I am not burnt to a crisp; I have the delicate skin of a sparrow) that I am going to get the thigh tattoo that I’ve been wanting for so long. 

 

    Here’s the fun part, I have wanted a thigh piece but don’t know WHAT I want. The struggle is real! I am stuck between a couple different designs (thank goodness I have some time to figure it out!) 

 

    I have several other tattoos, 13...14... 15... I don’t know I’ve lost track, but I’ve never jumped at getting one on my thigh before because of my size. I didn’t want to be judged, I didn’t want to be made fun of and I didn’t want to commit to sitting in that tiny chair for a few hours because let’s face it, when you’re a bigger person, sitting still in the same spot for hours isn’t feasible.

 

    Now that I am more than 100lbs down and over 100 inches, I am going to dive in and do it. This is something that I have been wanting to do for such a long time ad now that I am able to do it, I don’t want to waste another second.  I don’t really want to waste any more time being afraid of doing anything. I know that’s easier said than done, so It’s something that I am working on! 

 

    I just want to be free and have the mental clarity that I know I deserve. I know that full time mental clarity doesn’t exist, but wouldn’t it be amazing if it did?! The ability to think clearly all the time? I feel like that’s a serious catch-22! 

 

    In theory, 24 hour, 7 days a week mental clarity sounds blissful and amazing! In reality, I think that impulsive decisions are the bedrock of a real life functioning human person! I mean, if you don’t think that impulsive behaviors allow you to free yourself mentally and physically for awhile to allow you to achieve a greater sense of wholeness, then more power to you! I don’t live like that; I don’t think my general makeup will allow me to! It’s really all about the proper amount of balance! Maybe we’ll talk about finding our centers tomorrow, I don’t know! I never plan for these, I just write what I write and however it ends up is what it is! 

 

    I am not sure how my tattoo turned into mental clarity, but I dig it! With that being said, I am feeling SO much better about the person I am becoming! I still don’t know where I’m headed but that’s half the fun! 

 

    Hopefully the state doesn’t shut down before vacation or after vacation because I have big, big important plans to treat myself to some self care that I’ve been neglecting for so long!

 

    Anyway, here’s to a kick ass Thursday, friends! I hope you all find the correct balance between your impulsive tendencies and your mental clarity, because there is in fact the correct balance and it’s DIFFERENT for us all; since we’re all so uniquely and wonderfully different!

 

XOXO