I always said the statement above. Because I thought that sleeping was considered a weakness...          Who is the hell considers a basic human NEED as a weakness?! Mentally foggy people who think that if they do things out of the norm will somehow make them normal. I have news for you, it makes you freakin’ nut balls! Gives you dark circles, gives you brain fog and makes you hallucinate sometimes. (Tell me you KNOW from experience without TELLING me you know from experience..)        Sometimes I still fall into that pattern! Sleeping for 30 minutes just so my eyes don’t feel crusty and weird while I proceed to stay up for the next 48 hours.         While I don’t do that often anymore, I still struggle with feeling like I should be more productive during my sleeping hours. Like I somehow need to be getting things accomplished while I sleep.         I know that this is a co...

     I feel it’s been awhile since I’ve shared any of my art. If you were wondering, no, I haven’t stopped creating! I just stopped sharing! I’m not even sure why! I have come to terms with my art. What I mean by that is this:         I used to be a person who thought that art was meant to be perfect and pristine before ever letting outsider eyes on it.         I was unrealistically hard on myself as well! I haven’t had any proper training, no schooling, nobody teaching me! Every single art-like skill I have has been self taught and learned through the act of DOING, TRYING and most of all, FAILING!         The fact of the matter is, art DOES have a rhyme and a reason. People view it SO differently, what they consider art and what they don’t. For me, I consider anyone trying to do something creatively as art. It might me good, bad, awful, worse than awful, great, excellent or where in the hell have ...

     Dinner: Texas Roadhouse - Salad, broccoli, pulled pork. All good things. And a copious amount of rolls with cinnamon butter. FIVE to be exact. I. AM. DYING. Literally so full!          If you haven’t been following along, I don’t eat bread. I try to keep carbs to a minimum. Today I went balls deep in bread and I only regret eating too much.         But Jesus, have you ever had Texas Roadhouse cinnamon butter?! If you haven’t quit reading this shit blog and move your ass out to the nearest TR and get you some.         If you HAVE had it before, you understand the crazy, deep love for it!         Anyway, enough about butter!         What else? I have been working on my art a lot more recently! I absolutely love the freedom I feel right now! I have obligations to my book, yes! But for the most part my art is personal and in a learning phase that I...

     Today I was a complete toad! I sat my ass on a, “stool” and died there.         JUST KIDDING! I am completely up to my elbows in house renos and I swear the second I think I’m done buying things I need to finish, I say, ONE MORE THING and I should be done. In this case, I need filler pillows and I didn’t think about those until I got my bed put together today! It’s coming together nicely! The colors are perfect and the wall decorations aren’t up yet. Give me a break! I’ve been busy!              Here’s what we’ve got so far: (Not done, don’t judge!)              This is what else I’ve been busy with! Making time for myself! Going on adventure! Working out! Working on my mental health!                 I hope you are all having amazing weeks! I’ll keep sharing my renos and adventures with y'all!       ...

           I gathered the last of the stuff for my bedroom and I am just waiting for my bed-set to get here and according to tracking, it ’ll be here tomorrow!         I cannot express how excited I am to have my bedroom back! If you’ve never done renovations to your house, you don’t know that it literally destroys EVERY single room in your house! Moving things, rearranging things, buying new things! In the last 2 weeks I’ve completely remodeled my dresser, completely remodeled my bathroom, refreshed the pictures in virtually every room and now I am taking on my bedroom! I’d like to say I was in over my head but, I LOVE decorating and allowing my taste to change and grow right along side of me!           It might seem little to most people but for the longest time, I didn’t know what I wanted. Not in home decor. Not in life, not in any aspect of my life.         So for me, being...

    Another project down! This one was completely impromptu from a different failed project but I don ’t hate the way it turned out! My house is made up of mostly brown things. I’m not saying that I hate the color brown but black calls to me in ways I can’t even express!       So I am SLOWLY but surely getting rid off all things tacky brown! But I like to re-design and revamp on a budget! So I tried something new!          Contact paper for my bathroom counter top. How long will it last?! I am not sure! How long did it take?! 2 hours and A LOT of cuss words!        Here ’s the end result: (I need new hardware too! But that’s a whole new ballpark!) It's not perfect, but I tried my best!          I went out today in hopes to find the rest of my bedroom decor/final touches! I ordered a bed set (FINALLY!) Who knew finding the perfect green would be so DAMN difficult!?     ...

    Today was a pool day! It was 85 degrees out and absolutely gorgeous out! It was great spending time with my nieces and nephews! (most of them anyway!)      I ’ve got the next two days off so I am going to be using that time to explore and adventure!         I am also looking into starting some art workshops! I am always looking for ways to grow and learn so I thought my next step would be a professional setting! We’ll see! I don’t know if I’m ready for a class yet! I don’t know if I’m good enough! SO, we shall see!         Anyway, what else?!        I am in full planning mode! By next year I am going to have trips planned/gone on!   Minnesota, always wanted to go! This is the year!   The Grand Canyon HIKING trip! This is a new dream of mine! I’ve never been a, “mover” because I wasn’t physically able! Now that I am, it’s a challenge and an adventure all in the same!   ...

     We had an impromptu family game night tonight with my sister and brother in law! It’s always a fun time getting together for good food, games and company! It’s really easy to get lost in the shuffle of life and let family time slip!          Tomorrow, we’re all going over to our parents house for a pool day/cookout!         I am burning the candle on both ends right now with the book, illustrations and cook book! Plus having a life and adventuring every free moment!         They’re all coming along SLOWLY but surely!         With that being said! I am going to cut this one short and get to sleep! I'm exhausted! I’ve only been sleeping around 2-3 hours a night and it’s starting to catch up with me! (I know, I know, but I'll sleep when I'm dead!)   Stay tuned for more adventures, drama, writing and everyday living from me!    XOXO 

       So it ’s been awhile since I’ve introduced myself to y'all! I have some new readers so I thought I’d just do this and tell you all a little bit about me!      I’m 28 years old and I am just trying to figure out who I am! Here’s what I know so far!   I’m creative! I love working with my hands!   I am obsessed with learning! Knowledge is power!   I’m a writer!   I am an INFJ!       I’m an Enneagram type 4! I care DEEPLY for people and things. To the point where I end up hurting myself. I was diagnosed with an anxiety disorder!   I’m on a health journey because my health was a mess so I took my life back one year ago and have managed to drop 130 pounds naturally! I’m on a journey with no destination seeking mental clarity, joy and peace.   I love being surrounded by nature and the Earth. I absorb others energies! It’s EXHAUSTING! I’m learning to love myself and it’s been such a hard and REWARDING journey...

         I spent the day recouping from my adventurous 5 day weekend! I crammed quite a bit of adventure into 5 short days!         I am so blessed to be able to have the freedom to do so! I know a lot of people who aren ’t as lucky! Although I wish I had the funds to travel and explore MORE, I am grateful for the time that I can! I don’t take a single second of that for granted!         I got a migraine yesterday and was feeling crummy after a long day of wandering and joy seeking! Migraines aren’t fun, but nonetheless, I was grateful for the time away!         I am trying to trust the process when it comes to my art, my writing and my everyday creativity! Taking some time off of doing each of them every week to do something fun and adventurous! I need some space to be able to create amazing things! Things that matter to me and will make others feel something. That’s the kind of art I wa...

    Today I visited Dow Gardens! Whiting Forest! I ’ve lived in the area my entire life and never gone! (Why? I’ll never know!) It’s absolutely STUNNING! I love the atmosphere and how fully connected to nature I feel out there! There’s nothing like disconnecting from the world for awhile and enjoying nature! It was my first time there but it wont be my last! I am now getting an annual pass so I can go whenever I want! Because it’s a place I can go to clear all of the clutter that is dulling my mental clarity! A place for me to go to reconnect with nature, away from technology and outside intruders fogging my head space!         Anyway, here are some images from the day! I spent a few hours there, soaking in everything! I’m truly blessed!      Enjoy!       I hope you all are having blessed days!  XOXO 

     So I know you’ve all been on the edge of your seats waiting to see my finished product! I spent the last 4 days refinishing my childhood dresser!          And here it is!       I am OBSESSED with how it turned out! I am so proud of myself for actually doing it! I’ve been saying for YEARS that I wanted to do this and now that I’ve done it, I can’t wait to find my next project! (I even mounted my TV! I don't need no man!)        It was definitely a learning process! Here’s a few things that I learned during the process:   There are A LOT of steps to just PREPPING the project!   Paint and primer combos are tricky and will make you question whether or not you know shit about fuck. I learned that trusting the process is KEY! Watching paint dry is literally the worst.   Wax sealant is applied with a cheesecloth and I find that super weird.   Wax sealant smells like a headache in a tin...

     I am a whole mess today! (And everyday!)        Topic of the day: Rude people. Everyone is using the pandemic as an excuse to be shitty people and I’m tired if it.        I try my very best to be in a good mood. Employees are fed up with people just as much as I’m fed up with employees. If I go into a place to spend my hard earned money, I expect a small level of mutual respect. If I ask a question, I expect them to help me or find someone who can help me. Just as I would them should they find themselves at my shop. It’s not hard to put in just a little effort to be kind! I won’t get an attitude with you if you don’t with me! I just need people to pretend that they give a shit about others. That’s all. If you hate your life and people that bad, find a job that you can do from home. I don’t know!         Either way, I’m increasingly getting more and more irritated with people. Being mean for no reason at...