It's not a weakness...

    I always said the statement above. Because I thought that sleeping was considered a weakness... 

 

    Who is the hell considers a basic human NEED as a weakness?! Mentally foggy people who think that if they do things out of the norm will somehow make them normal. I have news for you, it makes you freakin’ nut balls! Gives you dark circles, gives you brain fog and makes you hallucinate sometimes. (Tell me you KNOW from experience without TELLING me you know from experience..)

 

    Sometimes I still fall into that pattern! Sleeping for 30 minutes just so my eyes don’t feel crusty and weird while I proceed to stay up for the next 48 hours. 

 

    While I don’t do that often anymore, I still struggle with feeling like I should be more productive during my sleeping hours. Like I somehow need to be getting things accomplished while I sleep. 

 

    I know that this is a completely asinine way of thinking and it’s absolute rubbish, but this is the brain I was born with and this is the brain I have to live with. So what do I do when those feelings are starting to creep back in?! 

 

• Remind myself that literally every human sleeps. (Unless they have fatal insomnia!) 
• Do something during the day that is just for me! Something fun and nothing to do with money or bills or responsibility!
• Go on an adventure to refill my heart with joy and happiness!
• Remind myself of how far i’ve come and know that in this moment, it’s enough!
• Take a ten minute breather! 
• Remind myself that i’m only HUMAN.

 

    The list could go on and on! But I feel that those are the most important ones! Sometimes you wake up and nothing works. That’s life! Get up and don’t let the struggles outweigh how blessed you are! 

 

    Last night, I was up until 5AM... I could not for the life of me fall asleep, I just kept going over my endless list of things to get done and all of the things I want to do and see before I die. I know, I’m 28 years old and worried about seeing things before I die?! But one thing i’ve learned from this life is that you never know what tomorrow is going to bring and you need to fill it up with as much life, laughter and love as you can! 

 

    I didn’t sleep last night and then when I finally fell asleep this afternoon, I zonked till almost 4pm. I don’t feel sorry and I am not upset that I, “wasted” my day sleeping. Because it wasn’t a waste at all! It was a basic human need of mine and I took advantage of the day to rest and recharge! Now I’m up, feeling great and ready to tackle the rest of my day! 

Say a quick prayer that I sleep well tonight! 

 

 

XOXO