It’s Memorial Day! It’s not a happy day. It’s a day to HONOR and REMEMBER all the sacrifices that were made for us.         I am incredibly thankful and aware of how lucky I am to be alive in this time. The world is scary and crazy and it seems to only be getting scarier and crazier by the day but between all of that, I am mindful of the facts. And the fact is, we need to be thankful every single day for what this nation offers to us.         Men and Women fought for this freedom, died for this freedom and I do not intend on taking it for granted. So I hope you always remember that freedom always comes at a cost; soul for soul.         I know I am blessed, which is why I committed this year to myself! It might sound selfish to anyone just tuning in but read down a little farther in the blog. I am NOT the same human I was one year ago. My mindset completely shifted and when the brain fog lifted ...

    A few months ago I told my sister in law, Kayla that I wanted a raised garden bed! I wanted to be a pioneer and grow my own food! She and Keagan and Kaydance took it upon themselves to build me one and decorate it specially for me! (I know, luckiest aunt ever, right?!)       So up up until this point (fingers crossed) I’ve been an admitted plant murderer. I try so hard to keep them alive and I fail every. Single. Time.      So here’s to new adventures and keeping plants  alive!      Also, peep my adorable little setup!    They look a little sad right now, but give me a break, it’s been cold       I also told you guys that I would keep you informed of what's happening with my plants... so here they are in all their glory! The best part is this decorated handmade bed from my little loves!       Tomorrow is Memorial Day and I am planning on doing absolutely nothing!...

     I’ve been tending to the garden all day! The mini gardens that is! I’ve got Dill, Chives and parsley, big beef tomatoes, and jalapenos! This is my first year gardening and up until now (PRAYING!) I’ve been a plant murderer!  This is my year to prove to the plant Gods that I’m WORTHY! (Fingers crossed!)        I’ll update with pictures once I’m sure they aren’t going to die! Haha        I tried out a new nutrition place that is local to me! I got a cookie monster energy shake with 24g of protein and only 9g of sugar! It was absolutely delicious and I 10/10 need to go back and try every flavor! That was my, “try something new for the day” thing.         I have a tendency to be a repeat offender. Meaning that I don’t always try new things and just always go back to things that I know and am comfortable with! But this year, I told myself that pushing myself out of my comfort zone and trying all the new...

Burt Lake: Indian River        I went and visited my parents and sister at their camp sites this weekend! It ’s memorial weekend and  I ’ve never been a drinker or into parties so my weekend is completely free! It’s such a calming thought! I have nowhere to be and nothing to do!         I like being busy, so I guess that’s the only downfall! This has given me a reason to go adventuring though! I told myself I was going to go on an adventure everyday that I had free! Small or big! I am ready!    Friday it’s Indian River Saturday it’s adventuring to get plants and flowers and try out a new nutrition place that’s local! Sunday is photo shoot day! (gotta keep the photos fresh!)   Monday is also an adventure... I plan to do NOTHING! Which is literally an adventure for me! I don’t even want to use my brain! Haha        Anyway, the adventures will continue and I’ll update you all here! In the meantime, enjoy t...

     I like to sprinkle my weight loss journey on this blog because It’s apart of my everyday life! Something that I am constantly working on and struggling with. When you’ve been overweight your entire life and have had literally zero confidence for the majority of your existence... when you finally find it, you blast it on high and stop being so subtle on your progress.          So here I am, voiding the subtle and radiating confidence. It’s a choice! When I started all of this, I made a choice. A decision to be more confident, focus more on growth and mindfulness, being kinder to myself and just being more honest about my feelings and open about how others make me feel.         Now don’t get me wrong, I know that this process is forever. I don’t ever expect my anxiety or depression to just fly away and I definitely don’t think that I’ll always feel as confident in myself as I do now.         You...

I have been alive for 10,319 days.    I have been on this health journey for 380 days.      I have lost enough weight that equals about 200 times as heavy as a Human Heart! In other words, 135 pounds is 200 times the weight of a Human Heart, and the weight of a Human Heart is 0.01 times that amount.   (human; adult)   The average human heart weighs about 0.680 pounds. Each minute, the heart pumps between 10 and 20 liters (3 to 5 gallons) of blood through its chambers.     This is my 145th  blog post! That is nearly 5 months! Damn, almost a half a year into this commitment!   I am a fully tarded adult still learning and growing through this process called life. (Anyone who tells you that they have it all together are liars!)   Your eyes blink around 20 times a minute. That’s over ten million times a year!   I am an INFJ and feel things REALLY differently than others.   I was diagnosed with a anxiety disorder.  ...

     I am a hometown girl with dark and painful past. (Aren’t we all?!) I’ve been through stuff (haven’t we all?!) I have a incredible appetite for knowledge and travel! I want to see everything and learn everything I can while I can!  I have done SO much soul searching, healing and rebuilding over the last year and this is my journey!        I have the most random thoughts and day to day processes and that is typically what I write about here. I fumble through everyday living, learning and growing each and everyday! So when I have a thought, epiphany or just want to get something off my chest, I write about it, here!        I’ll admit, sometimes I sound philosophical as hell. I am not. I hard time staying focused on just one project, one topic, one idea at a time... so you’ll see that reflected here on this blog!  Another key factor in my universe:       I literally couldn’t love my quirks an...

     I ’ve been working on so many things creatively lately that I can hardly keep track of everything! I’ve got 100 projects that are 1/3- 1/2 finished with absolutely NO clue when they’ll get finished. Isn’t that how every single creatively inclined person works?! No? Just me? I’m a freak?! WHAT?!  I’ve got: Fabric launches! Children’s books! Interior design projects! Novels! Illustrations for said books/novels! Illustrations in general! Overhauling my entire “chubby” girl wardrobe and replacing it with smaller sizes (yay but what a pain in the ass!) Marie Condo-ing my house... Mental and spacial clarity!        And a whole laundry list of other projects that I have yet to finish! Speaking of, I DO have laundry to do! Goddamn!         The way my mind works is a mystery to me! I am both severely scatterbrained and overly organized which doesn’t make much sense unless you live in my brain! Which let me tell you, be glad th...

  My art of the day!      The only thing that I am planning on doing today is relaxing, drinking tea, watching movies and doing a small workout! Because I have to keep myself accountable somehow! AND, I've taken the last two days off, so It's much needed today!       I hope you all have a super relaxing Sunday and get all the rest and relaxation you need before the week starts again!      I am using today to be completely mindless and useless! My brain certainly needs it! XOXO 

           I am coming on and writing late tonight! I had a day out today and decided that I NEEDED to redo my coffee and tea bar situation! So I went on the hunt for a new buffet! I found the perfect one for my space! Then I needed new decor and whatnot for the top if it... soooooo, more shopping!       I feel I am a great bargain shopper but today I just went for it! I needed a day like today to just reset my mind! I don't often spend a ton of money on random things but sometimes it's just a must!       I love the ending result! Now I just need some paint for the walls! The projects will never end. I love designing too much, redoing all the rooms in my house might be my toxic trait! My bedroom is next.  Color scheme I'm going for:  Emerald Green Mustard Navy White      I am on the hunt for the perfect bed set. I want to get that first and build off if it! Anyone else like that? You find...

     I’v e been going to the Tridge since I was a teen. I love it here, so much!        I’ve meditated here, lost myself, found myself, laughed and cried. Exercised, explored, completely broke down and found complete comfort here. I’ve felt every emotion in this place. Being here gives me a total mind, body and soul cleanse. If I’ve come with mental fog , I always leave with the clarity I so desperately needed!         I visited the other day after the farmers market and I found some unintentional illustration inspiration!!         I’m totally smitten with how it turned out and I’m thinking I want to have this one printed for my house! My lines aren’t perfect and it as a whole isn’t perfect but I love it nonetheless!        I intentionally drew myself faceless because I can be whoever I want to be here, unapologetically!   My illustration ...

     There are TWO types of ball season.          Baseball/softball season AND sweaty-ball season.         Both of which are happening right now.         I have SEVEN nieces and nephews ALL of which are playing softball and baseball this year. Do you know how hard it is to get to all of their games?! it takes some serious planning and skill! They’re all in different places and at different times but so far I’ve managed to hit three of them! On top of working, working out and living, I feel that is pretty fantastic so far! Only 4 more to go! I mean my goal is to always try and make it to more than one game, BUT if I at least make it to one of each, I don’t feel like such a shitty aunt.         Now onto the sweaty-balls.... It’s hot-hot outside lately... wear deodorant and take ya showers! That’s just a PSA for anyone who needs to hear it! (Which apparently needs to be said t...