Grocery order is complete (just have to pick it up tomorrow) for GWL! Thank goodness for grocery pickup!       I’m starting a packing list and getting my things together! Making mental notes is simply not enough for me! Not that I don’t have a pretty great memory, because I do, but I don’t like leaving things up to chance.         I ate a full meal today! Breakfast: Eggs with bacon and cheese and pancakes! I have been loving breakfast for dinner as of late!         I’ve been working hard on getting some creative things accomplished because I really want to push myself to be more productive this year! I don’t want to over extend myself by any means, because I have done that in the past and the burnout from that is unmatched.         So I am going to be making myself a vision board, one that is for my personal growth and one that is for my creative growth!     ...

     Prepping for GWL this weekend!          Grocery shopping and packing lists is on the list!         We pack breakfasts and lunches and then we go out for dinners! Because most of the day, we’re all in the water-park anyway, which is why we like to keep the day simple with easy meals that we can go up and eat in between the water park and lodge adventures!         We leave Sunday and I’m both excited and nervous!         I haven’t traveled this far from home in about a month because I’ve been so sick. (No, I don’t have the plague- I’ve tested multiple times!)         I don’t have a gallbladder- if you know, you know. If you don’t...feel lucky.        Anyway, I have to make my lists so that way I’m prepared because if I don’t there’s a very good change that I’ll spin out and have an anxiety attack. By, “a good chance” I mean I ...

     We haven ’t baked together in FOREVER! So I am going to throw you an INCREDIBLY easy recipe that is ready within 15 minutes! (20 including prep time!) Here’s what you’re going to need:   2 tablespoons of flour 1 teaspoon of baking powder 3 tablespoons of your favorite chocolate frosting ( I use Betty Crocker whipped sugar free!) 1 teaspoon of vanilla   1 teaspoon of liquid egg substitute      Start with your frosting, pop that in the microwave for 20-30 seconds depending on your microwave or until it’s completely melted.        Then add in your vanilla and egg and mix well! then add in your dry ingredients!         Grease a muffin tin or ramekin of your choice! And pop into your preheated 350 degree oven for 15-20 minutes or until finished!    OPTIONAL CHOICE!         Pick your favorite low calorie/ low sugar chocolate to pop in the middle before baking to give yo...

     I have my 3rd dentist appointment to get work done at 9:40 in the morning, BARF! We've talked about this before, I HATE the Dentist and furthermore, I hate when I have to get any sort of work done. But here's the situation, let me tell you why I'm having so many issues with my teeth as of late.  It started off like this: I didn't have insurance, dental work is expensive. (So I put it off!) My childhood/adulthood dentist was rude, rough and had a horrible bedside manner. (So I avoided her!) She made me massively uncomfortable!(Avoidance!) The office wouldn't workout a payment plan with me and wanted $1500 upfront before they did any work. (I live paycheck to paycheck, like most people.) I have massive dental-phobia! She messed up stuff in my mouth that I paid out of pocket for...and lied about a filling she, "did." What's different now? I DO have insurance now!  I found an office that takes said insurance!  The Hygienist was SO friendly, explained ...

     Today was easily one of the coolest mail days i ’ve had in such a long time! I got my first three notebooks in the mail featuring MY artwork!         I am not sure i’ll ever get over the feeling of seeing it places! I just lack the confidence yet in my art to believe that I’m good enough for it all.         But I’m trying!         I’m going to be selling them soon and adding them to the shop! I just have to figure out some details!         But here’s how they look!         I’m excited to keep putting myself out there and doing more of what I love! Which is creating! I don’t want to just tell stories anymore, I want to LIVE the stories I WANT to tell! And I think that’s how my mindset has changed over the last few years.         It’s a good feeling walking in the direction of what makes my heart feel whole and happy! I d...

    Listen, go to Sams Club and get yourself some of this seasoning! You'll thank me later! It goes good on pretty much everything! It's even great in coffee!       I haven’t felt good enough to cook a meal let alone eat the meal I cooked! But today? TODAY, I felt good enough to actually cook a meal AND eat it!         I ate and still feel great! I haven’t felt like this in weeks! So I am PRAYING that it lasts!         Now that I’m starting to feel better, I think i’m going to try and start easing my way back into all the things I love. At a slow pace though because I am not looking to run myself down again!         Anyway, I am going to take the rest of the day today to relax and make a list of things that I have to get done! I’ve been neglecting a lot since i’ve been sick and I am ready to get back to feeling like myself again, doing daily routines, feeling happy, fe...

     I ’m spending today fairly unplugged! Just watching movies, attempting to eat food and doing whatever the hell I want to do for the day.  (art, sleeping in, food, potato-ing, being completely lazy...etc)        We were supposed to have a get together with my dads side of the family but we have 3 confirmed cases of the ‘Rona so we did the responsible thing and reschedule so that way we all could go in good health.         So today, is a free day off and I am running with it! I don’t get too many of them!         My advice is to unplug every once in a while, take time to just do all the things you love in one day, completely unapologetically! Because life is short and the world is mad!         Life is not guaranteed, days aren’t promised. Be present in your every single day! And don’t put off the people who matter the most to you.         Have a ...

     I *FINALLY* feel like maybe I ’m on the mend! After many weeks of feeling overly exhausted and weak, today I ate like 4 times! Which breaks my previous forcing myself to eat 1 time a day record!       Don’t worry, I’m still going to go to the doctor! I want to get the situation under control! Having to learn your body all over again is hard! When you have surgery, especially to remove an organ, your body gets rewired, while it’s learning how to function again, you have to be patient and learn right along with it. That’s the perspective i’m trying to take with myself anyway!         It’s hard to stay positive when you feel like garbage 97% of the time. But I am doing my best!         Today wasn’t too crazy, I jut stayed in and worked on some artwork. My sister asked for a custom drawing for a tattoo and so i’ve been working on getting that done for her! This will be the first tattoo i’ve drawn up fo...

     I had a second dental procedure today! And then have another two scheduled for Wednesday the 2nd. Complicated I know, but they can ’t do them all at once because my mouth needs time to heal!         So, this is my worst nightmare, come to life! But I’m alive and fairly healthy and that counts for way more than fear and anxiety!         I just have to keep telling myself that.         The last two days I’ve eaten 6 eggs. SIX EGGS! Sounds small, but, that is more than I have eaten in a whole week, so I’d like to call that a win!          Anyway, I am off to watch movies, relax and just be present in the day! Because I am grateful. I might not be in the best of health right now, but I am figuring it out day by day! And in today’s crazy and ultra weird world, that counts for so much!    XOXO 

     I ’m doing all I can to be a human right now.        I am still having issues keeping food in, which is an issue for obvious reasons.        My anxiety is at an all time high. Which isn’t helping matters, at all.         I go back into the dentist tomorrow for a procedure. I can barely keep my excitement inside. (If you caught the hint of sarcasm, you’re my kind of people.)        On a more positive note, I launched a couple of pairs of shoes the other day, which I am really excited about! Here’s what they look like and I’ll add the link if you would like to check them out on my online shop! https://shelbylin11.threadless.com/      I am slowly trying to get some more work done while I am laid up and in bed most of the day, it’s the only thing that’s giving me hope that it won’t be like this forever. I am just trying to be as positive as I can be.      ...