In full flare...

    I have been in full flare for the past two days. What does this mean? Well it means something different for every person with the disease, because we all flare differently. 

Here are some of my symptoms: 

1. Extreme nausea.
2. So cold I'm shaking out of my skin but literally sweating bullets with absolutely no fever.
3. Feeling like i'm going to vomit whenever I move my head. 
4. Diarrhea. 
5. Loss of appetite; like I won't eat for days. 
6. Headache that won't go away.
7. All over body pain; stiffness everywhere.
8. Sleeping with a puke bucket in my bed with me.
9. Inability to drink fluids.
10. Dizziness.
11. Extreme fatigue. 

    Those are just the first 11 things I could think of right off the bat. I am MISERABLE. 

    I swear I'm not trying to complain, because I'm alive and that counts for a lot. But I am having a hard time being okay with the quality of life I'm actually living. 

I guess i'm just here for a good time, not a long time. 

XOXO