Out of control...

    I feel so out of control lately. My life is spiraling and I feel like it's just going to keep spiraling. I have a good team of doctors, but I feel like I am just continuing to get worse and worse. I know that's not the case! With any diagnosis, you have to be willing to go through the bullshit to get to the positivity.  But I feel like the end of the bullshit is never going to end. It's NEVER going to end.

    I am trying my hardest not to pity myself, but Lord Jesus, I am OVER it! 

    I hope while I am taking a sabbatical away from life, you are all living your best lives! 


XOXO

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