To be seen and not heard...

    Oh to be seen and not heard. To exist in a place where you can always be seen, so you can be used but only exist in that form. 

    It's the oldest form of dismissal in the book. You share you world with people and in return those people take your kindness, sincerity, genuine heart and they turn you into someone whose feelings get invalidated, undermined and you get swept to the side feeling crazy. 

    Never felt this way? Consider yourself lucky! 

    Because lately, with the people in my life, I am feeling completely unheard. I do feel seen. I have to be seen, because I am needed to do all the things for them that they can't do for themselves or refuse to do for themselves. Whichever the reason! 

    I always have to do all the things and sometimes I feel like if I didn't have to be the one to remember them all, i'd feel a little more heard than I do. Or maybe if I wasn't having to repeat myself constantly, I imagine that would help too. 

    I say these things because I KNOW we've ALL felt under-appreciated at one point in time in our lives. Lately, it's been my time to shine! 

    The fact of the matter is this:

• I AM the sister who sends gifts when she knows her sibling has been having a rough week at work or school. 
• I AM the sister who drops what she's doing to watch her nieces and nephews so mom and dad can have nights off or get things done that they need to get done, they just have to ask. 
• I AM the daughter/sister who would give her very last 5$ bill to make sure that her parents know how appreciated and loved they are on their special days (birthdays, anniversaries etc..) 
• I AM the PERSON who would give ANYTHING and EVERYTHING she has to make another person smile even if it meant I have to go without. 

    I am a giving person, I always have been. It used to be my love language. Until people stopped appreciated it and started expecting it. I never expect anything in return and TRUST ME, I've NEVER gotten anything in return for anything I've given to anyone. So I guess, i'll just give until there isn't anything left to give. Maybe that's my fatal flaw, i'm not sure yet? I guess we'll find out later in life when someone goes to take something more from me and I have no juice left to squeeze out of me.

    Word of advice: APPRECIATE the people in your life. Show them that you SEE them and HEAR them regularly, because everyone has a ropes end and I can assure you, when they reach the end, you never know what kind of person they may be at the end.

XOXO