This is life, but only for now...

    Stomach aches are quite literally becoming apart of my everyday life and I have to tell you, it's fucking exhausting! I am SO tired! I can't imagine doing this for the rest of my life. Now that I am going to the doctors, I am hoping that it doesn't have to be, but you never know. Life is crazy and unpredictable and I am not an exception. 

    Things happen to everyone. I know sometimes I ask, "Why God, WHY ME?!" And I know it's wrong of me to assume that I am the only one. Everyone goes through things, everyone has struggles and I understand that no matter what, I just have to keep advocating for myself! 

    I just want to be healthy, I don't care about trivial things, I just want to be healthy and happy and right now, I don't feel like I'm either. I'm obviously not healthy right now and it's making me very unhappy. 

    I just want to lead a normal life where I can leave the house and not have to worry about how I'm going to feel, if my non-gallbladdery ass is going to behave or if I'm going to pop my anti-nausea pills like candy.

    Today, I am grateful for medicine, my great doctor (it only took 29 freakin' years to find her!) 


    I'm off to get some work done and probably watch some trash tv because sometimes our souls need it! 

XOXO 



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