Bad juju..

    You every find yourself having BIG news that you want to share with the people that are supposed to love and support you the most just for them to basically say, "that's cool, anyway... You know what your brother or sister did this weekend..."

    No?! Consider yourself lucky, because I am constantly being undercut by things others are doing around me. 

    Here's the thing, everyone in my family have 9-5 jobs and kids. Which is GREAT, don't get me wrong. But because i'm the only kid not married, doesn't have kids or a boring 9-5 job, because I follow my own path and do things my own way, I am somehow less than everyone else.

    Nothing I do ever seems to be good enough. I pay all my own bills from following my dreams, I am constantly trying to one up myself and be better, do more and give to EVERYONE I possibly can. I go out of my way to do nice things for every single person in my life and I am ALWAYS stretching myself thin to make sure that I don't neglect anyone. So that nobody has to go without and so they can do things that make them happy.

    Do I EVER get anything in return? No. I don't do things to get things back, but SOMETIMES, sometimes it's fucking nice to know that all of the things I do, do for people are reciprocated and appreciated.

    Tonight is a rough night. I find that I am ranting when I know it doesn't do anyone any fucking good. But I needed to get it off my chest and now that I did, I am putting it behind me! 

    I release ALL negative and toxic energy from this post and I'm now going to cleanse my ora with some fucking gluten free, dairy free chocolate chip cookie dough ice cream.


XOXO 

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