Self-Care...

    Today I went for a 6 mile walk to get in some exercise and to clean out the mental cobwebs that have been inhabiting my brain! It helped that the weather was absolutely gorgeous! at a sunny 71 degrees! 

    The nature therapy DEFINITELY helped!

    Afterwords, my sister and I went and did a little self care shopping which for me lately, means new gluten free and dairy free foods to try, Hobby Lobby for random finds and whatever else I could find that sparked joy within me! 

    What can I say? Today, today life is good! I’m starting to feel more like myself everyday!  Which if you've been following along, you know just how incredible that feels! Over the last 2 years I have fought and clawed my way into health. 

    It hasn't been easy...not in the least. When I tell you I have failed myself many times, I've thought about giving up, i've contemplated my life on more than one occasion, i'm embarrassed to admit any of it. But it's life, real, raw unfiltered life! And today, today i'm proud of where I am!

    Being sick is hard and you always swear to God that if he could just make the pain stop, you'll stop doing all the things that you know he wouldn't approve of. (Or at least I do)

The truth is, that's not how God works. He's not a miracle worker, he isn't punishing me, he doesn't hate me and I'm not his punching bag. 

You know that saying, "Life is tough but so am I?" Yeah, that's cheesy but true. I know I just have to stay the course and keep the faith that I'll keep getting stronger. 

    Alright, I am headed to play my new Xbox 1 game and melt my brain mindlessly for a little while. You call it a waste of time, I call it self care, we aren't the same! 

XOXO