Competitive...

    I start my very first art class in two days! I am so excited! Up until now, I haven’t had any formal training at all! I’m completely self taught and learn by practice, example and basically trial and error. 

 

    I’ve gotten a lot better since I first started, but I will be the first to admit that I still have A LOT to learn and I am both excited and nervous to start class. 

 

    I’m inexperienced, don’t know shit about fuck and have to show my work to an endless amount of people who do know what they’re doing. 

 

    Maybe I’m way off base, maybe people don’t know what they’re doing, maybe there really are no rules when it comes to art, maybe I am overthinking this? But then again...I overthink EVERYTHING so, this is normal AF for me. 

 

    I think I am just going to have a hard time trusting that what I’m doing is good enough or i’ll find myself competing and comparing. Here’s something you might not know about me.. I am an extremely competitive person! I thrive on winning. It’s my toxic trait. I’m aware. 

 

    Anyway, I am off to start the powerup for this month! I am excited to do a prehistoric design! 

 

XOXO 

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