It's for me...

    We’re down to TEN days! T.E.N! I can’t freakin’ wait to get out of this town for a little while! I mean, I was just there in November...but you know, that’s too long! 

    I want to feel like I am NEVER EVER home! Because, that’s is what I deserve and am attracting this year! 

 

    I need time away from all of the noise. All of the decisions, drama and irritants of everyday. I know that sounds like I want to run away from responsibility and to be honest, that’s kinda what I DO want! I have been there for everybody, I have done all the favors, held all the hands, made all the extra trips, bought all the gifts, and done whatever I could to make people feel loved and appreciated by me. 

 

    Do I feel like people go out of their way like that for me? No, no I do not. Do I care that I am sort of in the foreground of everyone’s daily lives? Sometimes. But at the same time, I am used to being in the shadows and I know that they love me, just in a different way than I care for them. 

 

    My love language is helping, gifting and loving hard. And sometimes, I hurt my own feelings by thinking people have the same heart that I do. 

 

    Anyway, I am looking forward to just doing my own thing for awhile! This year I am focusing on me and my needs to a change. And I can guarantee that people will notice when I’m not there anymore. 

 

    Happy HUMP day! 

 

XOXO

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