Heavy, but necessary!

    Yesterdays post was pretty heavy...but I needed to get it out. I have been avoiding my feelings on the subject for quite some time and it’s been tearing up my mental health. 

 

    It still is, honestly. 

 

    I have made the decision to consciously and proactively look for a new place to live. I’m scared as hell to be in a new place where I don’t know anybody, but I can’t keep going along at this pace. 

  • I don’t feel appreciated.
  • I don’t feel cared about.
  • I don’t feel like people actually see me. 

    They don’t understand me, they don’t take the time to know me and lastly, I am always, always the one doing the work to go the extra distance for people who probably wouldn’t piss on me if I was on fire. 

 

    Now this isn’t to say they don’t love me. Which I know that sounds confusing... but you can love someone and truly not care about them. 

 

    Lately, I guess I just feel very aware of the people that surround me, the people I want around me. I’m more aware of the things I want to have in life and the way I want to live. 

 

    I don’t know exactly what I want to do with the rest of my life yet, but I do know that I want change and that is the best first step, ever. 

 


XOXO 

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