Sometimes...I just can't...

    Do you ever have expectations and then when those expectations get absolutely obliterated, you don’t even know how to act?!

    I feel like I should be able to talk to my mom about anything and today, when I tried to tell her my exciting news, do you know what she did?

 

    She rolled her eyes at me then proceeded to fight with me. 

 

    Which, remember how we were just talking about expectations? 

 

    My expectations of this conversation weren’t great...because I’ve been her daughter 100% of my life and yet...I still had a small sliver of hope in me that she’d just be supportive and happy for me. 

 

    I deserve more. I am there for EVERYONE. I go out of my way to do kind things for people, buy people just because presents and make sure they know I’m thinking about them.

 

    Do you know what people for me to say thank you or show they care? Nothing, usually. I never expect anything in return for the things I do for people but sometimes, SOMETIMES, I just wish people would consider me and think about me the same way that I think of others. 

 

    I know, I know.. you’re thinking to yourself, “Shelby...You KNOW that people don’t have the same heart as YOU! You can’t be disappointed when people don’t return your love.”

 

    These are all things I know...it still hurts the same! I’m really trying my hardest to not let things like this get to me. I am a grown woman and yet, it still hurts me when my mom openly doesn’t support me. 

 

    I guess, I am off to be sad and work through my very complicated feelings. 

 

XOXO