The night before...

    It's the night before my dentist appointment....I've been literally sick to my stomach for days and days (see last post) and now this! My anxiety is through the roof. 

    Wanna know how I am trying to cope with it all? Basically I am just throwing myself into work and movies. I am doing absolutely everything to keep my mind off of this. I know in the grand scheme of things, this seem little to a lot of people.

 

    But hear me out:

 

    My normal dentist is a MEAN bitch! She had ZERO bedside manner and she always made it seem like it was an inconvenience for you to be there, even though it was her fucking job. 

 

    So I am going to a new one tomorrow. And let me tell you that is half the anxiety right there. Plus that, I know there’s going to be teeth touching, poking, prodding and examining and I HATE that. I have the absolute worst teeth anxiety, ever! 

 

    So I am a huge ball of nerves. That might be a contributing factor in why I haven’t been feeling good, that’s not lost on me! 

    But nonetheless, I am pushing forward and just trying to be positive about the whole thing! 

 

    Although, my anxiety has been taking over full force over the last month, so It’s been extremely difficult to find the positives. When you have depression and anxiety, they never fully go away. You can treat the symptoms, but you can’t run away from it. 

 

    So I am doing the work and trying to be the best version of myself. 

 

    I just need a little time.

 

    I hope you’ve all had an excellent Monday and if you don’t hear from me tomorrow, I have passed out from mental exhaustion! 

 

XOXO