BASIC...HUMAN...RIGHTS...

    To say I am exhausted is an understatement. I feel like I haven’t slept in days. Which couldn’t be further from the truth. I’ve slept. Not a lot and not great, but slept. 

 

    My dental anxiety is seriously creeping in on me. My appointment is Tuesday and since it’s a new dentist i’m seeing, it’s basically just an intake. So a cleaning and x-rays and then the dentist and hygienist will come up with a care plan to get me all taken care of. Which will include a few cavities. I already know this from previous dentist appointments. The only difference is, the dentist that i’ve been going to since I was a child refuses to take my insurance. This new one, takes it. So I’ll actually be able to do something about it. 

 

    Which is something I haven’t been able to do for such a long time. I’m grateful, but queasy at the same time. 

 

    I plan to have a good conversation with my new dentist and hygienist about my fears and anxieties. Because I want to have a good open communication with them about it. 

 

    One of my fears, since I’ve never met either of them, is that they’ll be mean, judgmental and not understanding at all. Which is also why I wanted to leave my previous dentist, because her bedside manner is HORRIBLE. She NEVER had anything nice to say and she wasn’t patient at all. 

 

    Plus that, she wouldn’t work with me, she said she needed the cost of everything up front and wouldn’t work out a payment plan.  So without insurance (because she didn’t take mine) she wanted 1500$ up front. 

 

    Last I checked, I still had adult responsibilities that needed my attention. You know in order to keep a roof over my head, I have to give the lords their money every month? Food on the table? Heat and electric...water maybe? 

 

    Nobody has that lying around and if they do, they probably have bomb insurance anyway and wouldn’t have to pay that out of pocket. 

 

    So I did what I had to do, neglected myself. Because they don’t make health care affordable for everyone. Which I’ve talked about briefly before. 

 

    Anyway, I am working on myself every single day. And I am working through my anxieties and fears. One day at a time. And I am finally giving myself the care I know I deserve *EVERYONE* deserves basic human rights. *Medicine, dentistry, medical*

 

    Anyway, happy Friday! I hope you all have blessed weekends! 

 

XOXO