Compete for nothing...

    

    Ever feel like you're competing for peoples attention?! I do! I do! 

 

    Can’t relate?! Kick rocks! Just kidding...sort of! 

 

    I am entering a new phase in my life, one where I am trying hard to be more aware of myself, my actions, my intentions and using my feelings to express myself in healthy ways. 

 

    I spoke earlier this week about how I feel like I’m being silenced by some members of my family and how if my opinions are the same as theirs, everything is ivory. If not, it’s war. 

 

    The phase I’m entering also doesn't allow for being silenced either. I am done keeping my mouth shut! I am a 28 year old woman with feelings, beliefs, opinions and i’ll be good God damned if I am going to keep them to myself anymore! 

 

    This goes hand in hand with fighting for the attention of others. The only attention I need is my own. Positive, humble, honest attention that focuses on all the things in life that truly matter! 

 

    I used to find myself literally fighting to be apart of peoples lives. Now you won’t find me breaking down any doors to be apart of anyone's lives. If they want me in their life, they’ll make it known and vice-verse

 

    Fighting doesn’t solve anything, so now I simply walk away. I can love you with every fiber of my being and still walk away from you if you’re toxic and unhealthy for me to be around. This is 28, this is healthy, this is my new phase. Doing things that help me instead of constantly hurting my own feelings by having unrealistic expectations of others who cannot match my heart or who are unwilling to even try. 

 

    Okay, and that my friends is my Ted talk for the evening! 

 

    Lesson: Don’t chase anything, the right things will attract to you! 

 

    XOXO 

 

    Happy weekend friends! 

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