Just Don't...

  

 

    I am at an awkward stage in my weight loss where no matter what I wear, I look fat and my clothes are too big. I can’t go down a size because then It looks like I’m trying to shove my body into sausage casing. 

 

    It’s like the awkward hair stage but for a whole entire body. 

 

    I’ve come to terms with the fact that I absolutely HATE my body. Clothes don’t fit me right, I look WEIRD in EVERYTHING. And I cannot wait until I can feel more confident in my clothing and even naked. 

 

    It’s a strange thing to go through. Body dysmorphia. From years of being told things like:

 

    “You’d be a pretty girl if you’d just lost some weight”

 

    “Maybe people would like you more if you just dropped some weight”

 

    “Don’t you think you’d have a boyfriend if you weren’t so large?”

 

    With that, came anxiety and depression and the belief that my beauty was tethered to my body and the number on a scale. 

 

    So i’ve been working so hard to get that notion out of my head. My beauty has absolutely NOTHING to do with my weight, my body or anything else. My weight does not and will not define me anymore. 

 

    I’m NOT where I want to be and I have a goal of losing 60 more pounds and I know I’ll get there as long as I don’t give up! 

 

    Today the lesson I have for you is this: 

 

    DON’T EVER tell a PERSON that they’d be ANYTHING if they lost weight. Don’t give them a complex about their body because chances are they are already self conscience about it and you making comments to them about it, doesn't help. Your words have meaning and people have FEELINGS. 

 

    
Don’t be an asshole. 

 

XOXO