Healing, learning and rock bottom...

  

 

    I am dipping my toes back into the world of customization and it’s a lot scarier than I remember! I used to be heavy into the customization world with vinyling and whatnot. I loved learning about everything that came with the title.

 

    Then life happened. 

 

    A few years back I had a big trauma happen in my life. Something I never in a million years thought would happen. It really pulled me down, further down than I already was and I thought I’d hit rock bottom. 

 

    Turns out rock bottom, for me anyway, was much further down than I ever even realized. 

 

    After that day, things in my personal life got darker and darker. I lost interest in A LOT of the things I cared most about and along the way, really lost all character traits that made me who I was. 

 

    It seems like after that day, my life just seemed to spiral downwards. Anything that could have happened, happened to me. You know that saying, misery loves company?! In my case, the more misery there was, the better company I was. 

 

    I started to love hate. I started to encourage my own reckless behavior. The things I did didn’t matter because whatever the outcome was, trouble, death or otherwise, I knew It wouldn’t make me feel anything! 

 

    This is right around the time I stopped caring about being creative.

 

    So the day I decided to start my new health journey, I committed to losing weight, that was it. 

 

    After my first week, I could feel my brain fog starting to lift. After the first month, I didn’t feel the darkness anymore. My heart felt so much lighter. So then I committed to losing weight and HEALING. 

 

    It’s been a whole year since then. I feel a BILLION light-years away from who I was a year ago. 

 

    
All this to say, that I have recommitted myself to my art and creativity. At the end of the day, it’s something that I LOVE to do and I can’t wait to see where it takes me! It’s a slow re-learning process but I am eager and excited to jump in! 

 


XOXO 

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