It's only static...


 

    All right, so here is another update! Yesterday I told you all that I have been depressed for the last couple of weeks. I’ve just felt this heavy weight pressing down on my whole body, mind and soul. I can’t tell you WHAT triggered it or WHY! 

 

    Let me tell you how annoying that is! I have people ask me, “What are you depressed about?!” 

 

    I don’t fucking know bro! If I did, I would do something about it! I would FIX what was causing it. Some people know what’s causing their depression... 

 

    A LOT of people DON’T and that is perfectly okay! 

 

    Today, however, I am feeling a little lighter. I released some of my anger, I was vocal about my current struggle and that allowed me to release some of the darkness that’s been creeping in. 

 

    Depression isn’t a straight line. Healing isn’t ever easy and is oftentimes messy. 

 

 

 


    I feel like my brain is full of white noise, static! I can't focus on anything and It just feels like it'll never be clear again. I know that is anxiety talking and I also know that it'll pass and my brain will be mine again! Trust the process! That's what I keep telling myself! 

 

 

    I am dealing with this one day at a time. I know that one day I will just be doing something so basic and realize that the heaviness I’ve felt has passed and I’ll feel more alive. 

 

 

    My advice is this: Give yourself time! Allow yourself grace and understand that there isn’t a right way and a wrong way to heal.Do what YOU have to do for YOU! It’s not selfish or weakness, it’s strength. 

 

 

    I am doing what I have to do to for MYSELF! You should too!

 

 



XOXO 











 

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