12 months in the making...


 

    I am extremely emotional today! It’s officially my one year Health-Aversary! (Yeah, I went there!) 

 

    One year ago today I made a decision. That decision changed the course of my life in small ways and then in huge ways! Here are a few ways I noticed changes in myself:

 

  • I started having more energy!  
  • My mood went from perpetually irritated to only mildly irritated! 
  • I lost 10 pounds in one week! ☝️ 
  • My skin cleared up and my redness went away! 
  • My body literally felt lighter, like the weight of my past was finally lifting from the corners of my dark scary places!
  • I smiled, genuinely all the time! 
  • My severe anxiety lessened and I felt like bricks had been taken off my shoulders. 
  • I volunteered to GO places first! (I am a homebody, naturally!) 
  • My mindset changed. I was a cynic no more! 
  • My heart opened! 
  • I started feeling the fog from the last 15 years lift. 

 

    I've always felt like I was watching my life through the eyes of someone else. It went by so slow and the only emotion I felt was sadness and pain. I couldn’t see past a certain focal point and It made living my teen years and quite a few of my young adult years quite literally, hell. 

 

    There are so many more things but those were what I noticed right off the bat! 

 

    Here I am, one complete year later a completely different person. People say that all the time, “You wouldn't even recognize me, I am like a totally different human, so different from my teenage years.” Sometimes that’s true but I’ve found a lot of people don’t change! 

 

    With that being said, I am literally SO different than I was one year ago, two years ago even! 

 

Here’s what’s physically different:

 

  • I’m 130 pounds lighter! 
  • I’m 130+ inches over all smaller! 
  • I’m buying smaller clothes! (Not important but anything for a new wardrobe!) 
  • I’m HEALTHIER! 
  • I’m LIVING, probably for the first time, ever! 
  • I’m living life for MYSELF and nobody else! Another first! 
  • I have an honest relationship with myself! No more lying in hopes to force myself to believe anything. 
  • This list could literally go on forever, but I’ll leave it with this one: 
  • I finally feel that I have true and completely genuine happiness! 
  • I’ve learned so much about myself these past 12 months! I’ve never felt more comfortable or free in my own skin as I do now! 
  • I now understand just how strong and capable I am of absolutely anything! 

 

    I set out to find myself, learn and grow this year. I couldn’t be more proud of where I am today! I have a longer journey, sure! But I am not going to pass over this milestone and pretend that it isn’t a HUGE accomplishment for me! 

 

    It’s not about skinny, ever. It’s about HEALTHY and I am healthier than I’ve ever been, body, mind and soul! 

 

    Here’s to many more years of healing my mind, body and soul! It’s a forever journey and I couldn’t be more excited about what the future holds for me! 

 


 

XOXO 


 

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