*C.H.A.N.G.E * I.S * I.N.E.V.I.T.A.B.L.E*


    Happy March! It’s officially my birthday month! Which means I have to come up with something amazing to do this month! 

 

    I have changed in so many ways over the last nine months. It’s crazy to think that is all it’s been, nine months. Never in my life did I think, “9 months from now, I’ll literally be half the person I am today and my entire outlook on life will be completely different.” and yet, here I am half of the person I was before and my entire outlook on my life is so, so different! 

 

    I am changing. I am growing. I am morphing. 

 

    Yesterday, I went bowling with the family (if you missed it, peep yesterdays post!) We bowled for around five hours and not once did I get tired or sit out because my body was hurting. 

 

    Now you may be thinking, “Congrats, that’s a completely normal task for most people!” 

    Here’s what I’m telling you now: IT WAS NOT AN OPTION FOR ME BEFORE. I WOULD HAVE BOWLED ONE MAYBE TWO GAMES AND BEEN DONE. OR BEEN SO EMBARRASSED AND ASHAMED OF MYSELF THAT I WOULD HAVE JUST WATCHED FROM THE SIDELINES. 

 

    I wrote that all in caps because I was screaming it, I hope you felt that!

 

    I am so fucking sick and tired of sitting on the sidelines and watching my life pass me by. So I stopped, I assessed and I decided that I wasn’t going to do it anymore. 

 

Personal motivation reasons: 

* I want to live longer! (Obvi!)

* I want to be comfortable in my own skin!

* I want to look in the mirror and not hate the girl staring back at me!

* I want to up my chances of having a child of my own (thanks PCOS!)

* I want to be an ACTIVE participant in my own life!

* I want my nieces and nephews to know that I am going to be around and active in their lives for a long, long time!

* I just wanted to feel better in general!

 

 

    I can honestly say that I have made progress on every single one of those points! I feel like the more I work on my mental health the better that I get with my physical health as well. You never realize how connected every aspect of your life is. I didn’t think my mental health had anything to do with my weight and as it turned out, it was 96% my state of mind that was holding me back. 

 

    I have healed parts of my past that I didn’t know needed to be healed. I was so used burying my hurt and patching my wounds and compartmentalizing my anger that I thought that state of being was just who I was.

 

    I am NOT that girl, I am NOT my past, I am NOT my weight, I am NOT my anger.

 

    I AM strong, I AM worthy, I AM not an angry person. 

 

    I am thankful to be where I am. I am grateful that I have been given the opportunity to regain my life. I am blessed to have amazing support in my life. 

 

 

    I’m ready for a bomb March! Here’s to getting shit done! 




XOXO 



 

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