Wishes and challenges!




My last therapy session had homework: Write a list of 10-20 things that you've wished for that you wouldn't dream of wishing for right now. (I’ll choose ten!)

 

1. I wished I was thin (now I just want to be healthy!)

2. I wished I was beautiful (I look the way I look!)

3. I wished I was popular (BARF!)

4. I wished for perfect teeth (no one is ever satisfied with their teeth!)

5. I wished for one of those fake sweep you off your feet romances (CRINGE!)

6. I wished I was talented at just about anything (I am, I just had to grow into it!)

7. I wished for a big giant beautiful brain that knew everything (knowing everything, isn’t everything!)

8. I wished for invisibility while desperately wanting to be seen (anxiety and depression for 300 Alex!?”)

9. I wished I wouldn’t wake up sometimes because it was easier than feeling the way I felt (now I thank God for each and every second I’m breathing!)

10. I wished I was somebody else, anyone else (I can’t even imagine being anyone else, I love the person I am becoming!) 

 

It’s crazy sometimes the things we wish for. If only we knew back then the kind of damage these things could cause with our futures. I don’t regret them, necessarily, they are who I was. They’re not who I am now and they no longer have a hold on me.

 

 

On a side note, I’ve started courses for my new venture and I really like it so far! There’s a lot of reading right now and figuring out all the detail that goes along with it! But as of right now, I am really enjoying it! I am hoping to keep the momentum I have now, because once I get started in this for real it promises to take up a lot of my time! I am ready for the challenge! I am ready to pursue my dreams, I’ve put them off long enough! 

 


Happy President’s day, y'all! I hope the rest of your week is filled with opportunity and you give yourself grace! 




XOXO

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