Unapologetically out of control!

    The motivation train is for real this year! I am so determined to follow my passions, whatever they might be this year that I don’t think I’ll let anything short of an asteroid crashing into my house derail me. 

 

I dusted off the old books and am back at it today! I have some fresh new ideas and I‘m ready to put them into action! It’s seriously so heartbreaking to me that I’ve let myself get so far off track. In the same instance, I feel like my mini hiatus has given me the inspiration, clarity and mental space needed to be even more creative than before.

 

 I desperately needed some time to be completely free. Wandering around with no real purpose, was weird and difficult for me because I really enjoy being in control, especially when it comes to my creativity. I usually need to have a plan with a million lists. 2020 showed me how important taking time away from the normal and learning to love what is all around you is. 

 

Here’s what I allowed myself to learn: 

 

1. I don’t have to be in control all the time!

2. I do not have to be perfect, nobody is!

3. I am allowed to mute people in my life if they’re damaging my mental health!

4. Changing my appearance (losing weight, dying my hair etc..) makes me feel powerful!

5. Nature is the most beautiful canvas created by God and it’s everywhere!

6. I am unbelievably and unapologetically strong!

7. I do not need others to validate me, I am the only validation that matters!

 

That is my small but mighty list of reflections that came from my time away from my, “Normal!” It was hard but so necessary to my mental health.

 

With all of this being said; I am back and I feel that I’m going to be better, more appreciative, more unapologetic and honest. 2020 could have very well been the worst year of life to date but maybe the most rewarding.

 

 Slow down and appreciate. 

 

XOXO




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