Today doesn't have to be as heavy as yesterday...

 

    Today is all about unloading things that are heavy. 

 

I’m trying to hit every aspect of my mind, body and soul to help shape the future me that I know I’ll be. Getting there is the hardest part! Especially if you’re someone like me who doesn’t ever believe a journey is finished. 

 

I honestly think that destinations are just new opportunities for jumping off points. Once you hit one goal, you have a brand new opportunity to take that as a new starting point and find a new destination and so forth. They only end if you let them. 

 

Now, onto letting the heavy things go. I am always taking on other peoples weight. If someone I love is deeply hurting, sad or just in need of something, I almost always without fail take on the weight from their pain and carry it as my own because I know if I do, they’ll feel just a little bit lighter.

 

 Now some would say that makes me a good person (I’d say it makes me human) and I can’t deny that I know I’ve been there for people who didn’t deserve my time or attention but, I also know that when someone isn’t feeling it, they tend to take it out on any person around them who tries to reach out and help.

 Something I've had to come to terms with is that I can’t help people who won’t let me and I cannot carry the weight of their worlds on top of my world. I can’t juggle and even if I could I don’t want to be responsible for any of the shit I throw up in the air, unless it’s my own shit!

 

I worked this out over many years and I couldn’t for the life of me figure out why the hell I felt so mentally and physically heavy all the time. Having empathy for other is perfectly acceptable, but not when it fucks with your mental health, physical health and all over clarity! So let that shit go. 

 

- If it isn’t serving YOU anymore, let that shit go.

- If he/she doesn’t treat YOU right anymore, let that shit go.

- Constantly there for others and they repeatedly fail YOU? Let that shit go!

- If YOU are feeling that everything on your plate is making YOU feel too heavy, LET THAT SHIT GO!

 

We only have so much time on this Earth and how we spend it MATTERS! I know that the more weightless I feel, the better I feel. I am learning to let all the heavy shit go.

 

XOXO

Death Cab for Cutie