Small Energy...

      Have you ever missed someone you barely know? Someone you’ve never met? Someone you’ve just heard about? It’s a strange ache for the possibility that somewhere out there, there is someone who might be missing you too.

 

    Life is hard enough without adding, “trying to find my soul-mate” to the list. I have a sneaking suspicion that will happen in its own time, but until then, my heart aches for that person I barely know. 

 

    For now, I am focusing on myself and fighting for the woman that I know I am. I’ve decided that my new mantra is, “Not fragile like a flower; fragile like a bomb.” Because I am so fucking sick of typical female stereotypes. They're everywhere! My conversations with people are so interesting, especially now that I have an actual routine. I get them from every gender, so women who stereotype other women is small titty energy; but men? Small dick energy! It had to be said!

 

Do you workout? Yoga? (Not that there’s anything wrong with yoga) 

But then people are shocked when I say, “no, I’ve been boxing...” 

Them: “like with a real punching bag, wow that’s got to be so brutal and intense, just some punches here and there?!” 

Me:“If you call beating the hell out of the bag for 30-45 minutes a day a few punches here and there then, yeah! 

ALSO, aren't most workouts intense? I mean if you're doing them right I guess! 

 

    It’s not a man's sport anymore and this is the twenty-first century! I am not competing for Christ sake, I am working out while I take out my daily frustrations. Plus as a bonus, I am learning how to defend myself because this world is full of sketchy fucking people. 

 

    It’s gone full circle. I used to apologize for existing (not really, but basically) and now I don’t apologize unless I know I’m wrong. I’m done apologizing for who I am, what I want and fighting for the woman I want to become. (p.s. if you’re reading this as a male or female, you should stop apologizing too!) 

I am so done with small energy! 

 

    Today’s message is this: Be patient, be kind and be true to yourself! We all need a little bit of grace and it’s up to us to give it to ourselves! 

 

    Also, it’s Sunday again... that means rotting away and eating keto cookies and skinny pop popcorn all day with a heavy dose of music and de-stressing before Monday rolls in guns blazing! 

 

XOXO