I've been having feelings today!

 


Today has been weird, I just woke up in an off mood. Am I sad? I don’t know! Am I mad? Not sure? Am a just content? Wish I could pinpoint it. 

 

I feel everything today! By everything, I mean every fucking emotion under the sun! If there is something to be felt, it’s today. I am not sure if it’s the weather or the way I slept or didn’t sleep. Stress? Anxiety? Beat’s the absolute fuck out of me! 

 

I had plans today to be a successful member of society but I don’t even know what that means anymore. I do my best to be a good person, helpful, caring and understanding and I just feel like it hinders my ability to take care of myself sometimes! Anyone else? 

 

I woke up this morning with giant flashing light above my head that said, “GO BACK TO FUCKING BED, TODAY IS THE WORST!” How could it be that way at 8am? 

 

If you’ve never felt this in the morning, I envy you! Because it’s basically like being psychic, you get to see all the bad, obscure things happening before they happen. Except the view is fuzzy and you only get chilling feelings and flashes of anger! 

 

It’s a bullshit day! The only good thing that’s happened today is the fact that I have good taste in music, GOD BLESS!!! 

 

If you’ve had a great day and you’re reading this, DON’T let me bring you down, I’m happy for you! (NOTTTT, take your good day and shove it!) Only slightly kidding! 

 

Alright, that’s all for today! I am going to take a longgggg, hot shower and drink an entire bottle of wine in there! That will surely turn this day around! 

 

XOXO 



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