Happy hump day!

    Boy has it been a week and it’s only Wednesday! I am exhausted, I feel like I have only gotten sleep when I blink and couldn’t be farther from the truth! 

 

I have some large goals this year and I plan on lining myself up for each and every single one of them. I don’t think most people realize that while we’re so busy building other peoples dreams, we’re just continuing to let ours fall farther and farther behind us. I don’t want to wake up one day and regret anything. So I am using my time on this Earth to make sure that I am doing what I have to, to achieve my goals. 

 

I have dreams I haven’t even thought of yet, and that is because this life is an ever-growing and ever changing, vast place and I think that if we aren’t constantly changing, we aren’t ever growing; and growth is my main focus this year. 

 

I want to be so confident in my own skin that not a single person can even attempt to tell me who I am. One day I’ll automatically have the ability to prove them wrong, instead of proving it to myself too. 

 

I also believe that I don’t owe a single person an explanation for the person I am , the person I was and the person I am trying so hard to become. I owe it to myself to lead the happiest life I can and even if that means I struggle a little bit or a lot getting there, I am going to do it for myself. 

 

I finally got my paints out again and the word I used on my painting this time was, resilience. I think that is the most fitting word on the planet for me right now and I am claiming it as my word of the YEAR! I need subtle reminders of how strong I actually am. It’s easy to fall apart; but I always get back up swinging harder.

 

 I’ve always been a fighter and this year isn’t going to be any different except for the fact that this time, I’M FIGHTING FOR MYSELF. I’m done carrying around everyone’s bullshit, those are their demons to carry! 

 

I hope you all have an amazing hump day and remember that if you aren’t fighting for you, nobody else is either! 

 

XOXO 




Low quality picture of my painting, HIGH quality moment! 
Gouache on watercolor paper. 12X12


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