Merry Christmas Eves, Eve...

    I take great comfort in knowing that today is the only day that you can say, Merry Christmas eves, eve! 

 

    Yesterday I spent a lot of the day feeling like crap. Which is partly due to my lack of gallbladder, partly due to the fact that I ate an entire head of cabbage in two days and my body basically said, “fuck you!” 

 

    So today I am recovering. Because good lord, my life is a complete mess right now. I am taking full ownership of it! 

 

    I’m doing my best to keep my head above water! My anxiety and depression are always exacerbated by the holidays, large gatherings and when large quantities of money are being sent out. 

 

    I have been crying a little more, screaming a lot and my list of curse words could probably qualify me for the Guinness book of world records; but HEY, I’m getting through it one hour at a time!

 

    I am showing myself a little more grace this week than I normally do. 

    I am allowing myself more wiggle room to just be who I am, without apologizing. 

 

    What i’ve learned over the last year is that I don’t owe any single person an explanation for who I am. I don’t owe anybody (family or not) ANYTHING. 

 

    But I owe myself a whole LOT. I owe myself everything. 

 

    Remember that! 

 

    Anyway, I wish you all the happiest of holidays with the people you love and who love you back! 

 

XOXO