Chaos...

    The Holiday scramble is beyond chaotic. 

 

    I feel chaotic. I’m spiraling. And my mental health is rocky. 

     

    Holidays ALWAYS make me feel this way. Family always makes me feel that way. 

 

    I am doing my absolute best to focus on my mental health. 

 

    It’s hard when there is so much going on and you feel like you don’t have control over anything! (which is how I often times feel when I’m in large groups of people!) 

 

    I HATE not feeling like I have any control. I don’t use hate a lot anymore. Because when I started my journey into self awareness, mindfulness, health and wellness and overall mental health, I stopped forcing myself to feel those negative feelings. I allowed myself to throw away all of the burdens of the cynical outlook of life I had before. 

 

    They didn’t just go away, I work CRAZY hard to keep the negativity at bay. Sometimes, they creep back in! Especially when I feel stressed, anxious and overwhelmed. 

 

    So these next few days it’s going to be crucial for me to keep my head straight. 

 

    Happy Holidays, friends! 

 

XOXO